My Trauma Is Happening Again.

[Pale Warrior]

So glad, in an odd way, that there is a family around you (even if only in a physical kind of way) in the absence of your supporter.

I cannot immagine how it must be with your brother as he is, what a responsibility. You are coping remarkably well in the circumstances, kudos for the grades.

I am amazed they let your brother out of hospital, given his mental distress, physical illness and suicide attempts. Here in the UK people can be retained against their will if they are a danger to themselves or others, I had to have it done to my father at one point. Is there no way he can be kept securely for treatment?

 

[Queen Boudica]

Congratulations on your results Sheer Force of Will.

It is so hard when you have done so well and are expecting your family to recognise it and they are distracted by everything else. .

I really do feel your story is so similar to mine. I had just passed my A levels with straight A's and then just started Uni when my sister was first hospitalised. But I did not really care what my parents thought about my results I just wanted to get away and those results were my ticket out of there. But I was studying and trying to work hard with all the madness going on in my house so I know what an acheivement you have accomplished.

You have worked so hard and done so well, with all of this going on. You deserve so much praise for that. That begins with you accepting that you are an exceptional person who has made it through some truly terrible circumstances and you have still come out doing so amazingly well. You are strong very very strong!

Your parents are overwhelmed by what is happening to your brother, but to have you do so well, they know it, they must appreciate how you have done so well, it is just they have too much with your brother.

Do not beat yourself up for feeling that you need some recognition for how spectacularly well you have done. Of course you need that. You have taken the back seat in your family for a long time and you did so well, you really need that recognised. It is human nature. You are normal and you want your parents to see you and how well you have done. That is not selfish it is just normal.

Reward yourself for your amazing acheivements. You have done so well, it will pay off for you. There are very few people who could acheive what you have done. Keep looking after yourself and don't let all you have worked for get lost in the turmoil.

You are the rock in your family, even though you don't see it, but even rocks need to be tended to and looked after and must ensure they get the help they need. You are doing so well.

 

[Sheer Force of Will]

Thank you all again for your support. I was really alone while this was happening and y'all made me feel like I had somewhere to turn. I cannot tell you how much that means to me. You are all so wonderful.