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This is me, too. It used to be a joke... ha ha, I’m accidentally doing Ramadan... it feels less funny looking at the glucometer reading. For some reason, the more food choices I have, the fuller my refrigerator and pockets, the less deserving I feel of food. When I’m absolutely broke, and all I...

So... just typing the word “incel” anywhere, nevermind its preceding “self-described” and succeeding “community,” that is to say, a community of people (which, let’s be accurate, is male-dominated but absolutely contains plenty of women in actuality, much like SA and DV populations contain men...

Hm. This thread started out as what I think was a pretty fascinating exploration of how kink can be a form of re-enactment. Of course, nothing unusual about that. Not even necessarily inherently unhealthy IMO. But your “Dom” wife? Sheeeeeesh... are you “in the community?” Connected with other...

So, not clear on how to give this a prefix, maybe because I’m on mobile? But this is an ED thread. Anyway, I clicked on this forum to open my own ED thread, but I saw I was in such robust company just on the first page of this forum I decided to take a slightly different tact and invite others...

To offer a different situation, I do seem to have a “part” who takes over sometimes, and “she” is talented above my own means in my estimation, but the Dx of DDNOS for me has been controversial. I am now finally relatively dissociation free in normal, routine life (how strange it is), but it’s...

It seems to me that you’re using sex as a means of self-harm and perhaps to induce dissociation. In that case, I do not think having sex is a good idea at all. Whether or not you may have suffered CSA is not for us to posit, but I do hope you continue to work with your T about those memories...

Dissociation Sliding over emotion like thick silt gathers atop the depth of a stilled river. There is no sound below.

This is a crazy long thread (hah), so I wasn’t able to read it all. But am I crazy, or do you have just the worst luck with faith organizations? Yikes. I hope this is approaching a resolution for you. I couldn’t imagine facing this situation myself. It’s certainly up there with Worst Case...

Thank you for the welcome and thanks for this. I’m a Chicken Little with school. Last semester I broke my A streak with a B+ in the class that kicked my ass; the sky didn’t fall. This semester began last week, and I’m not going, and the sky didn’t fall. Funny, I thought it really might...

Honestly, my psychedelic experiences are what gave me faith and sometimes temporarily (1 year or so, typically) cured my depression, insomnia, and suicidality. I don’t recommend it to anyone struggling with mental health or especially any form of psychosis, but it’s had the opposite effect on me...

Let’s trade. Teach me again the brilliant virtues of coloring while musical spelunking on Spotify; I will trade you shows that make you smile or think. I promise I’ll only show you the feel good stuff if you show me a way back to feeling. :happy:

Well, see, I took 10mg of Ambien nightly for awhile, maybe 8 months, obviously not my own script. My T knew, and my P was also informed (seriously, I WISH you or anyone who knows—I’m lookin at you, @Friday—me could’ve been a fly on the wall for that first appointment. There was a student...

You swallow it like a pill, so you don’t taste it, although you can read here about how the minty-ness occasionally haunts me. :giggle:

Hey, so, I’m in a bit of the same boat as you. I used to be pretty critically anorexic as a teen, and I’ve struggled with food ever since. Weirdly what helped me the most for the longest time was crushing poverty, and now I’m not that poor, so I need a new solution. Unfortunately, I have no...

Oh my f*cking god @joeylittle I have missed you so. So, would you be able to sit in on an appointment on the tenth? No? I’ll get you a cabin? :bag: Seriously, though, thank you. Why the F*CK did he prescribe me something with that side effect? Don’t get me started on the puke-inducing one...

Some other lovely member wrote this here once. I can’t for the life of me remember who it was. But when “I was a precocious and mature child” actually means “I was severely neglected and forced to raise myself through a shitstorm of trauma.” Paraphrasing here. I hope that member sees this. I...

Welcome to the forum, Ry. I hope you find this a helpful resource. That’s awful about your experience with therapy. You deserve ongoing support, not simply a Dx. Have you tried searching for therapists who specialize in trauma and PTSD? Or maybe there’s a type of therapy you’re interested in...

I need to quit watching TV again. I don’t watch conventional television except whatever might be on in the background at work, but I almost completely quit watching shows last year for many months. I got really in touch with myself by listening to what I would dub very postmodernist music, and I...

Thanks, @somerandomguy! Totally appropriate. It means a lot. It’s never easy to make the decision to log back in. Then it’s a cakewalk to reintegrate. I love this community with all my heart, all the time. It saved my life again and again.

Well, the circle is complete. I probably disappeared from here early this year, during my last semester of graduate school. My cycle has been to resurface 2-4 weeks after a semester is over, stay till 6 weeks into the semester, then bob in and out of the forum until the final 4 weeks or so when...

@Digz Listening to a radio station and participating in a forum specifically for PTSD is really different, but even for the radio program, how could you possibly know if the content would be triggering without at least listening to the premise? If they had already given the premise (“This...

I have these. I'm still reeling from a full-fledged (total immersion) flashback from last week. I felt sick as a dog for 2-3 days. I have therapy hangovers, too, if it gets really intense.

Something wild just happened. I'll have to write more about how I've been coping later, but you won't believe what just happened. I had an embarrassing thought about my class earlier today. And then, compulsively and repetitively--as my "I hate you!" always is--I said, on a loop: "I love you."...

You would probably find a far more receptive audience and focused responses in our supporter section.

There's quite a lot of research coming out about epigenetics and generational trauma that points to trauma being recorded and stored at the genetic level. Most fundamentally, developing fetuses do receive cues from their mother's stress levels, which I believe can predispose infants to higher...