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Thanks for the responses @scout86 , @pixel , and @aut555 . They are helping to keep me going. I ended up going out in the wind and rain to see a friend while she did shopping in town (we don't live that close so since she was in my town I decided to brave going out). I don't what came over me...

Thanks @scout86 . I am working on believing that I will get through this. Part of me is ready to go back to in-patient to get extra help and maybe move forward, but I don't really want to be away from my family and I need to get stuff done. I just know the place I go to is very helpful and I...

Yeah, doesn't work with mine. We've tried. It's a bigger issue. Some medical possibly some behavioral. Got an appointment for him (finally) with specialist (in potty training- never knew there was such a thing!) but not until beginning of December, but it's a start.

I don't know. Just keep responding? I am so tired of this struggle right now. One okay day is not enough to sustain me. I even had good things happening yesterday (like my son finally has an appointment with potty training specialist, not for another month, but it's a start), but I just...

I have been struggling today. Lots of anger coming from parts and now am struggling with the shame of not being useful. It's so hard because somewhere I know it isn't true, but I can't help it. I am struggling to keep present and all I want is to disappear just for a magic while while...

@Muse, I don't take a lot of meds, but I do find some of them helpful. I can get sleep and that's important. I used to be really against them and I would still like to be off of them, but for now they help. The hard part is dealing with the dissociation that leads to dangerous activities.

I don't really know honestly. Last night I made myself a schedule of what time I was going to do what activities. It hasn't been perfect, but this is the best day I've had in weeks. I am avoiding internal work so far today and I know I need to do that, but for now I am just glad that I am...

Yeah, I get it. I can relate. One thing after another and then there's too much to figure out what to do and how to work on anything and then you just get frozen. Yep, feel that way a lot. I want to say I feel that way every day, but I know that's not the truth, that's just how it feels...

@pixel , thank you! Yeah, I should listen to my mantra more often and think of it when I get on here, right?!

I just finished my schedule and I have mainly things I enjoy doing, but haven't on it. I have breaks built and and eating built in! I also made myself a note that I don't have to follow the schedule perfectly. Here's hoping! My therapist is awesome. A little unconventional at times (but...

@sun seeker and @scout86 , thanks for asking how I am today. I am exhausted. Yesterday was such a rough day added onto a string of rough days. I could barely get out of bed this morning and was 5 minutes late to my physical therapy. My fabulous therapist let me come for an extra session...

I like the idea of re-purposing it. Make it into something positive. Or maybe just keep a small bit of the fabric and figure out how to get rid of the rest.

To answer some questions several of you have asked here's some answers. Yes, I am in therapy. Yes, my therapist works with me and yes, she works with parts and helping me to work with parts. I don't want to get into too much detail because that gets confusing for me, but let's just say there...

@Friday , so those are questions I should ask myself? Including the last one? Or are you asking what you forgot to as that would help me? I like that you put in the no overthinking, no wrong answers. I think I shall try these this afternoon- answering those questions. I didn't see this post...

Great work @Bristol1485 ! Making it to bed without self-harming is great. One moment at a time and one distraction/skill at a time and you can make it until bedtime today, too. Best wishes.

@Panda Bear , here and now is good advice. I already think I mess my kids up which is why my 4.5 year old not being potty trained stresses me out. I've been working on being more in the picture when I can for that one rather than avoiding it even though it has the ability to really trigger me...

I would love to just tell you to move on, but I know that is easier said than done. I've watched a close relative be emotionally abused by his wife for years and there is just no talking him into leaving. But I like what @Fadeaway said. There's good advice there.

I am so sorry you're dealing with this, @mightyinkkedone . I do not have the same problems with my husband, but I (the sufferer) always feel like a burden. So I had a breakdown of sorts in front of him tonight and I asked him to tell me the good things that keep him with me. I said anything...

I am working on reframing my system about using the word right so I will respond to this by say you found the best words you could. The most beautiful words. Advice I am writing down to put on my mirror. I cried reading your words, @Justmehere , in a good way, not the way I just cried for an...

From the onset of fall weather and appearances, I start anniversary time. It's not just about a car accident. I was a wife and a mother of 2 young children and within a year I would find out I had dissociative identity disorder so throw that anniversary into the mix. This time of year is...

I am trying to figure that out right now. I loved my town when I was younger. It was a small pass-through town when it used to be a factory/mill town because of the rivers. Anyway, I have great memories of walking to the Post Office and getting the mail and to the library (where I spent a...

I go to the same kind of catastrophic thinking in certain situations as well. I wish I could help you with specific encouragement and advice. I had to quite my job and I need to find strength to do that and am still working with the catastrophic thinking that has come with that. What I did...

You're whole story and the progress you've made is amazing, but these summarizing statements a beautiful.

My part that gets relief from cutting likes cold, smooth rocks laid on her arms and face or to just hold them but they have to be cold. River rocks work best. A substitution could be ice or a cold cloth. I couldn't handle that cold, but that is one of her main distractions from cutting or...

@Nessa7 , thanks for sharing your experiences. Sounds like case managers can be hit or miss in terms of helpfulness.