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Hi everyone, I'm new to this forum. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, DID, MDD and a panic disorder as a result of long-term organized child abuse (trafficking, SRA and mind control programming). I am deep in my healing process, am doing so without a therapist as so few are qualified and my...

I am sorry that I can't give you a simple yes or no answer to your question. I think I have to tell you the reason for me doing it. When I was around 14/15 I started to have visits by the part that I call the witch. She wanted to do rituals on me to kill me and by doing so killing the voices in...

Fear, anxiety and even panic have reasonable roots. From an evolutionary standpoint, these responses to high-stress situations served us well -- sharpening our senses, giving us the necessary adrenaline to run far and fast and otherwise rousing our bodies to action. When you happen upon a cave...

Label it and put it away in a box. Relate to that a lot. I have absolutely no reason to think I have suicide cues programmed into me, but I have found, over the years, a couple of cues that are in there. It is incredibly scary. One of my cues? Prompts me to undress and lie down on the...

I certainly wish this were true. Though, according to my T it's not. For survivors of ritual and satanic ritual abuse and MK-Ultra and the like, there are death/suicide MC/programming cues. I feel as if I'm walking on ticking time bombs as I never know what MC/programming will emerge which...

Yes, absolutely your limbic brain, It's the lower part of the brain and it consist of structures we share with reptiles, is incredibly fast. It interprets incoming data and scans for signs of danger If it detects a pattern that it associates with danger, it can take over from the Much slower...

I’ve been looking online for sources about EMDR and false memories because I’m watching an acquaintance’s family self-destruct over social media based on memories of sexual abuse that were recovered (or induced) during EMDR. Last year I went to a talk by a therapist who does EMDR with all her...

...here and there. I expected something else I guess. Didn't receive it. That is until my current T, who has experience with satanic ritual abuse, ritual abuse, mind control, and has researched serial killers. To say what I witnessed no matter how horrific and have her hear me, acknowledge me...

I'm a survivor of physical abuse, sexual abuse, psychological abuse, emotional abuse, ritual abuse, mind control, and torture. In addition I witnessed the same abuse and torture happen to children and adults before they were murdered. The abuse started when I was 2 to 3 years old and stopped...

...a Trauma Specialist. That said, the T who helped me the most years ago had absolutely zip experience with PTSD, DID, mind control, and ritual abuse. He became an expert by treating me and learning the ropes. I found my T through recommendations for different therapist practices and online...

Hi Scout In detail, there are complications, which I sort of summed up in the last two paragraphs. I didn't intend to go into detailed analysis of all of the intricacies. John C Calhoun's class analysis provides a key to interpret the whole picture. Actually teasing out all of the details...

I can relate to this 100%! I grew up in a cult. All rituals, no matter how extreme, was for "god", to love "god", to worship "god", etc. I took refuage in a chrstian youth center so I was exposed to "normal christians" (for lack of a better term) and also have a very fundlementalist christian...

...on though, I'm doing it, I'm going to therapy...again. I finally found a trauma specialist who has dealt with survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse, Ritual Abuse, and Mind Control. She's got no problem dealing with my memories which involve murders. I had to lay down the ground rules for my...

Yes! I couldn't put my finger on it but the psycholical damage done by the cult is WAY more then just emotional. WAY MORE! I think of the movie Inside Out for emotional. The cult had changed (or developed as it was never there before the cult) my core beliefs about me, about them, about...

...looking back, that two of my worst therapists engaged in it as well. One of them even diagnosed me as being a survivor of satanic ritual abuse (SRA) based on a conference that she took. However she lacked all of the facts and prematurely diagnosed me according to the conference's guidelines...

Hi @Ragdoll Circus.. Thankyou for sharing your own story on this. I understand in the sense I was conditioned to believe I was useless, ugly, stupid and fat... Fat was a major thing in my childhood home. Violence was used to scare... Walking on eggshells was an everyday occurrence. My father...

My abuser deliberately used a range of tactics from hypnosis, to ritual, to punishment/reward, to indoctrination techniques (and on, and on) for the purposes of abusong me, and because he seemed to take some kind of enjoyment from making me believe some pretty messed up things. It took me a...

What exactly is "crazy" to you? I grew up in a cult. I forced myself to believe none of it happened for 10 yrs. It was just a dream. To the point of acutally not having memory of all that happened as late as 18 and 19 yrs old. During the trauma it was happening to someone else, not me...

Hi Congruency...well I've made it for 30 years, so it must be 'enough' but that's part of why I'm on this site to see if I can get a little more. Wow, I'm not sure I would have been mature enough 4 years into it, to handle things, but then sometimes I wish so much I had known and maybe we could...

...And recently, after my beloved dog died, I had alters emerge for the first time since my integration in 2006. I'm highly triggered by death. I didn't know this was part of being a ritual abuse survivor until I started therapy this last year with a trauma specialist. She informed me of this...

...that I do not believe I am the victim of brain washing, but more gas lighting which can f*ck you up a lot as well because you cannot ever trust yourself or your perspective of things if there is a lot of gas lighting. I think gas lighting might also happen to a large extent in cult/ritual abuse.

...if someone tells me how to upload it I will. Now as weird and scary as that was... Which it still is.. There was some kind of satanic ritual abuse to what they did to me that night... I was on a military housing base.... And Halloween is one of there special sick holidays right??.. Anyway...

...of her lack of experience. My initial guess/hunch is yes. I eventually found a T who was learning to treat DID and ritual and satanic ritual abuse among other kinds of abuse. I stayed with him for 14 years. It was definitely a collaboration of efforts on both our parts. He was good because...

...so I was drawn to that type of person. She asked me about what happened to me and I told her. No details. I'm a survivor of satanic ritual abuse (SRA), ritual abuse (RA), mind control (MC), physical abuse, psychological/mental/emotional abuse, and sexual abuse by my father. She never heard...

...in our lives and you didn't choose your sick parents or to be raped. There are a few people on here who have been through satanic ritual abuse and im sure will gladly offer support and wisdom on there journeys. It does get better... It does but it needs.. You need the best therapy...