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Love this! 1. I'm procrastinating on 3 things: an important licensing exam for work, putting together a resume/job hunting, and sending out enrollment form for grad school 2. My son's school is putting a lot of pressure on us because he is special needs. It's like they expect us to "fix" him...

I'm in that bracket of make too much for assistance, but not quite enough to make ends meet. We'd be better off if I stopped working to be completely honest. So working poor. Maybe not forever, but right now I'm not healthy enough to work full time.

Okay, soooo....more days than not I feel normal? I don't know. I don't even know what to make of that. But I like the fact that I feel somewhat like myself. I need to catch up on all that has been left behind in the last few years. Maybe I will begin with getting my house back in order...

Therapists tend to use more than one theoretical approach. They don't use use just one theorist. They tend to pick a couple different theoretical approaches and blend them in a way that they find best suits them in a therapy setting. My therapist and I have worked extensively with CBT, gone...

Hmmm....I'm not sure how to answer that. I'm not sure it is any one thing that the therapist says. I know that for myself, I was very closed off/guarded, unemotional, numb, all of the above. I played the part the best I could. My therapist was and is very empathetic. I'm not going to go with...

Yes and no, maybe that's further into things, like self-care--the point where you are a bit more stabilized and trying to keep yourself in balance when things begin to get really rocky. Stabilization at the beginning or when things are at their very worst, honestly, for me couldn't be done on...

I've soooo completely thought about this. I'm not sure how my husband or family would take to it. But I've wanted to for the longest time to just change it all. I think if it were just me I would. It's interesting to hear that others have.

I've learned most everything from therapy. More accurately, I've learned to allow myself the permission to take as much time as needed to recoup. I've learned self-care and what that looks like for me. I've learned that it's okay not to do it all right now, and to take the time to heal...

Raising kids. Raising a child who isn't like his peers, and no one can tell you why.....is hard. It's challenging to navigate, it's confusing, at times it's heartbreaking, and often times endearing. Where it's infuriating? With teachers who want answers and lables, who want medications, and ways...

Today is a much better day than I've had in awhile. Anxiety is still up, but I'll figure it out. I think I really do need to talk to my psychiatrist about it. I've kept telling her things are great, but I've probably been a whole lot in denial. It's not. I hide a lot, and don't interact...

Omg, this sounds a lot like me in the beginning. Mentally/emotionally, and I moved states. #1 Focus will be getting you stable. Honestly, easiest, fastest, safest way, meds. You probably need daily anxiety and antidepressants, something that keeps you even keel 24/7. Are you seeing a...

This one is hard, and something I struggle with also. Maybe in the meantime, look at a couple other rental options so that of this one falls through, another one might be used as backup? It will keep your anxiety down a bit. Keep praying, he usually comes through and sometimes in ways you...

I've been searching for it, but no not yet. It's something I came across on the Internet and it was the first time I was introduced to his name. It's driving me mad. I've been really busy lately but I will take a second look, but I was frustrated when it didn't come up in my previous search...

I've done that before too, but this was different. I'm not sure how to explain it. I guess sort of the same, but if you amplified the experience by a thousand maybe. Like if you watched someone else do it, but inside your own body I guess. I have no freaking clue how to explain it. I'm 30...

@Laurie2001 I guess that's it though. I pass right on through the terror response. I'm no longer scared at all, my heart rate has dropped, breathing slows, completely calm, like dead calm. I just cannot unfreeze, I'm trapped inside my own body and have no way to communicate. I think the only...

No, I haven't tried DBT. However, I've only been in therapy for a year, so thus far we've used CBT and been working through EMDR. I will definitely have to look into it though.

@recoveringfromptsd thank you for this. I'm not sure what to do about the trigger. It's simply because the date coincides with the time when I walked away from the trauma and what was occurring. I had to cut off my entire family in the process because I knew that my experience would not be...

@lostforgottensoul, I have not been officially diagnosed, although I know my therapist has asked questions trying to figure it all out. I keep quiet out of fear, cause I don't want there to be something there. At this point, I don't know if it is an "inner child" or something more. She's...

So, the holidays turned out to be somewhat difficult to emotionally navigate. However, I've been struggling ever since to articulate what happened during Christmas dinner. I've always dissociated, but this time it felt very different then how I normally experience it. And to be honest, it...

You're experience sounds somewhat like mine at the moment. I don't know if my little girl is permanently gone or not. She used to hide under a table terrified to come out because she was scared someone would hurt her. More recently, I've caught her out playing, jumping around, skipping, etc...

It's amazing how back and forth my mind is right now. Spiraling into my eating disorder, wanting to go further, finding myself terrified, crying for help, and contemplating recovery. I never thought the two would coincide at once. Maybe it's because I've spiraled enough times before, I've been...

Okay that last bit is freaking crazy. I have heard of him before because he covers a freeze response I experience and its not being explained by anyone else. If I become very emotionally overwhelmed/fearful (ex. Intense flashback) I will begin to dissociate, and then become completely...

I'm not sure I should ever admit to this out loud. I thought about (but never actually did) driving my car off the side of the road with my children in the backseat. I was in a horrible mental state. I had postpartum depression, thought my toddler had just been sexually abused (which turned out...

I need to start organizing my thoughts for my next therapy session. I definitely want to prep for emdr. But also, some other stuff that needs to be sorted through. I'm not sure what will happen this week, considering all that I'm working through. 1. Brother--feelings elicited, anger towards...

I swear these posts are gonna get more uplifting at some point. Just not yet. Food is a no-go. I feel like I can think more clearly without it. That's horrible to say, but it's true. The dissociative episodes are less, the ptsd symptoms easier to manage. This is all why I reached out for...