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Hey @Dana1010 ... I think you may be on to something. I've been so busy the last few months that I have neglected some self-care I suppose. Moving twice in two months, adjusting to a radically different life than I was used to. I had gotten pretty well dug-in to the bachelor lifestyle. I was...

I hide my anxiety all the time. And I mean like, ALL THE TIME. Until I'm out of view of anyone.. then it comes roaring out and I'm shaking and crying and the whole deal. I found myself an enclosed cube at work so people can't see me shuddering. In honestly though, I'm really only good at hiding...

Yeah, I do need to keep the amount of stresses in mind, I suppose. It's hard to do so when I'm caught up in how much I love this lady though. Just seeing her makes me smile, and so I'm probably not doing the mental housekeeping that I need to. It really has been a long stretch without any real...

I have been completely relaxed at times, but it usually involves herbal remedies. Otherwise, the most relaxed I've ever felt was just floating in the water. I haven't done it in decades (no pool) but it worked.

Oh, and thank you all for the warm greetings.. It's nice to feel welcome somewhere.

@Stickler: Most of it was childhood trauma, but there was some when I was about 19 (still a child really) that caused another personality to erupt. I'm not seeing a therapist right now (flat broke) but I've gotten the number of one from my PCP. I hope at least that person can fill out the FMLA...

So hey again. I was feeling better for a long time, and thought I was 'over it'.. I thought I had my symptoms really in hand.. and maybe I did. But that time seems to be over. The Curse is so strong right now. I've missed so much time from work that they put me on restricted leave, which is...

Feeling much better. Actually I calmed down almost immediately after getting some sleep. Everything is going well, though I'm really stressed with the upcoming move. I think I'm doing well though. It is so hard, sometimes.. to let go of the past. Not just things that happened to you, but...

"I found this blog advice good as I had trouble with the 12 steps. I have learned things from it, but maybe the AA steps don't sit well with me for some reason." I'm with ya. I never really got into the 12 steps. AA was going well, but then one day it got really weird. I was just sitting there...

Swimming in abandonment issues. Yesterday I did something catastrophically stupid. I told somebody the truth. My girlfriend, who I really dig, and honestly love.. Asked me a very loaded question. "Why is it that whenever I bring up the idea of Forever, you get all evasive?" Now the quick...

Heya.. for those interested, I bought my girl a Daith piercing, which goes through an acupuncture spot in the ear. I don't know what sorcery has be wrought, but her migraines have drastically reduced in severity. So there you go. =)

This right here shows a massive red flag to me. Alcohol can be trigger in itself, add that to its deleterious effects (no inhibitions or verbal filter) and it's a hell of a dangerous drug. I would avoid it if I were you. I have to... Also I totally get what your talking about with toxicity. I...

Thanks, guys. I've found an acupuncture joint around here that is dirt cheap compared to the guys who charge $120 for the first visit. My doc suggested it when I told him about her migraines. I'll give her a link so she can read this thread too.

Hey guys. Does anyone have experience with migraines? I don't get them myself (well, maybe one every 9-10 years) but my girlfriend is borderline crippled by them. She is in massive pain almost constantly, and I have to just stand there feeling like there's nothing I can do. She's even starting...

Hey guys.. Doing much better. I got to my doc on time, and despite some delays due to 2 emergent situations, they got me in to see him. Our conversation was pleasant.. by that time I had really cooled down, but I told him everything as I should, about the stuff at work and how I had been...

Okay.. so I called my psych and he has something open for 3.15pm... I'm going to ask the boss if I can leave at 2pm. This is terrifying considering that he told me that I can't miss anymore work just on tuesday. I don't know what's going on.. I'm okay for 2 minutes and then flipping the f*ck out...

@Notsowild I'm not sure. I mentioned it once to one of the directors, he said to say no more.. Also I checked the 'disability' box in my application for promotion. I've never gone up to HR and straight-up asked for accommodations. Rather scared to do so, because they want me gone. Maybe I can...

Bad times.. I've been missing lots of work due to symptoms and other things.. On tuesday the boss calls me in and lets me know that it can't go on, that people in HR are watching me. Been in a low level panic ever since. Lots of nausea.. I've been able to keep food down, but I feel like I'm...

Well for one thing, this is absolutely normal for someone of your age, regardless of their past. So don't worry too much about that one. Growing up is hard to do, you will stumble a lot, make plenty of mistakes, and then start to figure things out; just like everyone on the planet ever. ;) And...

Nope. You aren't responsible for another persons actions. And believe you me, there is no end of issues that can make a good person be mean. Maybe they've got something rotten in them, maybe it's a temporary thing, or a misunderstanding, a failure of communication. Or maybe they're just plain...

I can't say for sure that I'm free of them, but I can say that I've gotten them largely under control. I still have problems with triggers setting me off, sometimes for the smallest of reasons. It just depends. But I'm much better at getting myself back under control before episodes set off a...

I'm thinking Casey is dead right on this one. You can't rely on drunk feelings to forecast that your fated to always be alone. Alcohol is really a bad deal if you're depressed.. Only makes things worse. And for GOD'S SAKE don't drink alone. I started that way and ended up being an alcoholic. Not...

You aren't a terrible person. A relationship can only withstand so much chaos. I know when my ex-wife kicked me out it was because of that, among other things. It wasn't my idea, but it was a good one. It was only after I lost my caretaker that I was able to take my PTSD seriously and then start...

I have no idea how I'm going to feel when my brother dies. I mean.. it's over. He lives in another state and doesn't hurt people anymore. He can't hurt me now, largely because he knows that I would call the police in an instant. He always was a big coward about getting in trouble. Hell, I think...

I used to experience this, a long time ago... A feeling like... everything was so bad, for so long, that if I allowed myself to be happy just one slight little bit, then someone would destroy me. It was kinda based in fact too, because if my primary abuser ever caught me being too happy, or...