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Epic thread. :) I have so many songs of significance that I really can't go into them all. Or even get started.. Among others, The Cure, but it reminds me so deeply of lost loves that I can't really listen to it anymore. :( There is also melodic Gothic music when I need some compassion. There...

Heya @WildMermaid , just to let you know... Everything is cool. This thread is a very good idea. Don't let my troubles get in the way. I was just having some issues last night, and neither he nor I want him to surface. All it does is make things unhappy. So don't let one little thing get in the...

Yeah, definitely don't spam her. That's just annoying and kind of needy in itself. She's gotta decide for herself how things should proceed.

Welcome back! :) And hmm.. Okay. Well that's really hard to say. Keep in mind that gender and sex are too different things. Sex relates to the anatomical reproductive parts that you were born with. Gender has more to do with cultural assumptions as to what a person of the male or female...

@mytai I have to be careful, because if I don't watch it he'll surface... okay yeah, this is getting too close. I'll see if I can get back on this thread later..

@mytai I've never tried punching bags.. not sure how well that would work out. I know that he's really big on self-harm though. Which is part of why I keep such a tight cap on him. @Born to Run I don't quite know exactly what he classes as. Like I said.. it's kinda like.. an attitude change. A...

Oh, he's written here before. It doesn't go well... And I end up being triggered for so long, I don't want to risk it. I've reached a pretty stable place in my life right now, and I really need to keep that going, for other people as well as myself. Tell you what. Next time he's about I'll try...

Yay! for survival. Yeah, I sometimes forget that. He took the horror so that I could live. He accepted damnation so that I could have a chance. He did keep me alive, even though all he wants to do is die. My poor friend...

Yeah, I have a little one in me. He's about twelve, and we finally settled on calling him "Kid".. I think it's a good one, because he found my T's name for him, (Little "my name") as kind of demeaning I think. He makes himself manifest by co-consciousness. It's like.. I'm awake, and I can...

Yeah, I get this from myself a lot. Sort of. I mean, there are plenty of parts of me that are straight out obsessed with what happened to them, but... Sometimes I compare my lot to the things that have happened to other people, and it's like... what on earth am I so upset for? Sheesh, I mean...

Oi.. well, I can't give an exhaustive list as it would never end. But the big things I guess. I vandalized a golf course when I was 14. It was a horribly stupid move, brought on by my people-pleasing. I learned a lot of lessons from it, though. Then other things. Well, I've banged two married...

Oh wow, man. Okay, well first, welcome to the forums. There are tons of supporters of those with PTSD on here who will be happy to help you out. They've been through it, they know the drill, etc. But I would say, right now. Stop comparing yourself to her former boyfriend. Don't do it. You're...

------------------------------------------ The feeling that you get when you start a job, and keep a job. Is so very liberating. It can bring you so much hope and personal pride. Knowing that even with the deck stacked against you. Even though it is probably harder for you than everyone you work...

Hang in there, man. It's a lot of work, but you can get there if you 'do' it. Like, take action... It could take forever, but... what do we have other than time, right? :)

Umm. Relieved. Massive relief, actually. I had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and DID many years prior to being diagnosed with PTSD. So it didn't come as a big shock. But honestly, just going down the list of symptoms basically tells my life story. It was so spooky to find out how...

I do this sometimes when I'm dissociating, but on purpose. When I'm having a bad anxiety attack, sometimes (when I can remember to) I'll lay down and sleep. It does the trick. So there is that... But I do think that on some occasions I have gotten crazy sleepy while talking about my past with...

I did that once. Went dark. But I survived and it really wasn't worth it. Sorry man, but this is depression that is doing this. Not the kind you can think you're way out of (don't we all know about that?) But the sort that takes help from outside. Go see a doctor now, if you can't stand your...

Yeah, I've heard of it. My friends and I use it all the time in co-op video games. I imagined everyone would. d'oh!

How odd. I can see where that is going. Like.. begging for love from other's when you don't love yourself. Wow, now -that's- some needy behaviour. I can see myself doing that constantly, at least in the past. Nowadays I have gotten kind of better at the sort of Self-pity that is described in...

I don't mean to bash anyone's religion, and certainly not to insult them. Part of this is because I have an alt who is still locked in that twisted Christian mindset (that he was taught, I realize that some people had a completely different experience.) When psychiatrists asked me the question...

A big part of PTSD is shame, and that shame is born of pride. I have a great deal of shame over some of my traumas, because of pride. I used to always think that it was my fault somehow. That I could have done something different, that I had control over the situations. And it is true that I...

Umm yeah. Felt it was kinda shitty to respond in such a forward manner. Also it just derails the thread more. I'll fix it and put it elsewhere. :wacky:

Welcome to the forums. I think you'll find a great deal of caring people here. And no, this doesn't come of as a pitymongering thing at all. (hugs)

Yeah, I get what you're saying. No life is perfect. But I do think that having PTSD can aggravate the situation. Perhaps it's no different in an empirical sense, but it certainly does play a factor in a person's life. It can be difficult to keep perspective on things. I think that's part of why...

Aargh. Boy am I familiar with this one. It took a very long time for my family to come to accept that I have PTSD. My mother does (and honestly she's got a whopping case herself, though she's big into avoidance,) My father? Well.. I don't know. He's usually drunk and jolly, so I just don't...