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hello weirdobeardo. welcome to the forum, despite the fact that you stole my favorite nickname. i'm the weirdo beardo of my family. congratulations on your recovery. may the healing carry you from survivor to thriver.

hello axeman. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. i'm not sure what yardstick to use for the comparison, but i think my life feels more worthwhile here in my 70's than it did in my 60's. i might be more engaged here in my 70's than i was in my 20's. for...

empathy, lavender. my intense mistrust of all things human has quite literally driven me off-grid to evade all things human. alas, that wilderness adventure only taught me that i am human, too. humans are a gregarious species. humans are not designed to live alone. by whatever summary, it's a...

hello robert. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here but glad you are here. i started my recovery in 1972 with "trauma induced amnesia." i had blocked the memories of my entire childhood. it took me another 15 years or so to understand why my shrinks kept saying, "amnesia" like it...

i have several similar nuts in my family tree. i love having family, but it is a booger bear when the nuts hit you over the head. i use visualization to get me through encounters through. e.g. when i the emotional storm begins, i visualize an umbrella between myself and the storm. there isn't...

empathy, ags. in my own case, this is a vicious psycho snot knot that plagued me for decades. it isn't so much of a problem for me these days -knock wood- because i have learned how to recognize and ply therapy tools before i fall too deeply into the proverbial rabbit hole. just learning how to...

welcome emmie. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are hear. color me clueless on the med therapies, but i consider offering support to others one of the more important pieces of my own recovery. caring about others opens the door to powerful healing potentials for myself. welcome...

hello auwai. welcome to the forum. looking forward to getting to know you.

among my breakthroughs in my recovery from child sex trafficking was abandoning the search for a one-stop microwave solution. it seems like every time i put my healing hopes into a single capsule, the results fall short of my expectations and i lose all hope. don't accuse me of experting, but i...

a recovery motto which has helped me along the way is, "take what you like and leave the rest." often, somewhere down the road, the pieces i left as "not useful" turn out to be just the tool i needed.

my last medical checkup was 1995. in the early 90's i started with just boycotting insurance and trying to pay for medical visits out-of-pocket. the providers were uniformly rude at the very notion. in the 30 years hence, i have gotten progressively worse. since covid, the smell of antiseptic...

child sex trafficking survivor. i started my recovery about 25 years before the ptsd dx was officiated. the ptsd dx was officiated around the turn of the millennium.

hello ramon. welcome to the forum. on my personal scale, i would put this "trauma" on the same level as a teenager not getting the latest e-thingy. no. i do not believe taking a day for myself should be traumatic for anyone under any circumstance. no one ever saved a drowning victim by...

hello frankie. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. i am an army vet who often hears, "thank you for your service." my "service" was a plush job in communications which lead to an outstanding civilian career. may i give all those unwarranted thanks to...

i am a fanatical believer in small steps, big faith and lots of prayer (by whatever name). as pertains to the secrecy codes, i started with my own belief that secrets are worth guarding. i meditated (prayed) on that belief until i formed the faith that no, they are not worth the resources and...

hello jane. welcome to the forum. for what brings you here, but glad you are here. i subscribe to the theory that we are only as sick as our secrets. kept secret, that trauma stays inside with ample room to grow and morph under the cover of secrecy. left out in the sanitizing sun of honesty...

as a child, i also believed in leprechauns and fairies. i still do, sorta, but not even my bestest fairy godmothers have the power to rewrite the past. done is done. gone is gone. this has proven true in my own case. the resources i childishly invested in attempting to rewrite the past has been...

hello monica. welcome to the forum. do i get to call you, "young 'un" because i am a whole year older than you are? so, or no, getting through the day seems to be getting tougher all the time. if it ain't one thing, it's two. sometimes one step at a time seems more than i can manage. having a...

hello bella. welcome to the forum. now that you are looking, you will find incredible amounts of talk and information about people like us who have suffered trauma and are having a tough time healing the trauma, you are nowhere near alone. welcome aboard. i hope you find healing companionship...

anger is one of my meaner demons. so much so that i attended court ordered anger management classes back in the 90's. venting and anger channeling are the most effective tools i have found for it. repressing and/or pouring sugar and spice on my anger only turns into mount vesuvius. explosion...

empathy, niki. the worries of how other people do/have treated me remain high octane fuel for my intrusive thoughts, mistrust and hyper vigilance. they are, hands down, my most therapy resistant symptoms. after years of struggling with it, it seems like appreciating the moments @parrotthepolly...

hello ruen. welcome to the forum. when i started my recovery in 1972, i was pretty clueless on how any of the available resources were supposed to work. it all looked crazier than my own psychotic breaks. learning how to make those available resources work for my unique case was/is the...

hello rachael. welcome to the forum. may healing carry you from survivor to thriver. i hope you find stabilizing companionship here.

we're all walking contradictions partly truth and partly fiction taking every wrong direction on our lonely ways back home i find recovery much simpler when i don't try to make sense of it. it is what it is, whether i understand it or knot. may the atrocities we survived as children NEVER be...

and why, exactly, would the opinion of a perpetrator make a lick of diff to your recovery? my recovery is mine. the of people who inflict these injustices matter just as much as the shit on my shoe. where's my sanitizer?