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Another one today on the hiking trail above the house. This one is a non-venomous bull snake. This time of year hyper-vigilance is an asset.

There are 4 other book shelves in other rooms as well as boxes of books in storage. When I was married we moved a lot for my wife’s work. One move I counted how many boxes of books I had and it was 50. I think this last move I was down to 20 something. It is a lifetime affliction and I need to...

I am going to look into that. Due to my childhood I am a terrible people pleaser. I have been working on it but it is all so foreign. I enjoy connection but I seem to lose myself. I often seem blunt or at least it feels that way when I say no. I have not found the sweet spot yet but I am working...

My name is Dave and I have a problem…..

So many books, so little time.

Eat breakfast with coffee on the front porch. A three hour hike up the hill. Zoom yoga with my trainer. Pack for the yoga retreat I am leaving for tomorrow. Turn out the lights at a reasonable hour.

I’m guilty of whatever it is called.

Et in Arcadia ego. Death is just part of life. In the West we have sanitized Death and don’t speak of it as if that will jinx us. We fear it. It is the ultimate other and thus it must be feared. In many developing countries death is accepted as part of life, it happens, with frequency. Infant...

That was the first rattle snake I’ve seen this season. A good reason to stay out of the tall grass and always look before stepping over logs, etc.

I have had a series of little dogs over the years. No special training needed. They light up my life. This morning little Lulu woke me up prancing in circles like a puppy. She is 4 years old. I started the day nlaughing before I was even out of bed.

Just be patient and give her space. Pressure is a big no no, particularly with someone with a trauma history. I know it is hard but if you pressure her it will not turn out as you desire.

Ultimately exercise is good on many fronts. Just start easy, a 10 minute walk and then turn around and walk back. Do it 6 days a week. After a week or so add a little time. My trainer used to have me do some intense still on my bike like hill repeats and intervals. My BP spikes under heavy...

People with trauma are quirky. I am. The gal I have been dating is too. Both of us have trauma histories and our own quirks. My thinking is that I can learn from her but at the same time I am on the receiving end of some weird stuff. For example she has been in Nepal for the past several weeks...

I played on the Husky today. The photo is in the middle of an ocotillo forest. Usually it looks pretty dead but this time of year it is greened up and the foliage are blooming.

I miss having a clue.

I made a quesadilla with some leftover steak, cheese and New Mexican green chili. Yum.

For me I noticed that I haven’t been experiencing it as much as I did. I have also noticed that I no longer need sleep meds which I had to take or not sleep for the past 30 years. I have also noticed I am forgetting to take my anxiety medication fairly regularly. I take that as a good sign. I...

The first thing is to drink some water. Getting outside always helps. Focusing on my breath helps reduce anxiety.

The Cambridge Companion to Jorge Luis Borges. I am a big fan of Borges and I have quit a collection of books by Jim’s and about him. The fun never stops.

Antony makes a good point, we do have a choice. We are bombarded with questionable content constantly and we can choose to disengage. It is a bit harder these days as just not watching TV doesn’t do it anymore. It seems to seep in from everywhere.

One thing I do when I read the news is to say “interesting if true”. I try not to buy into all the sensationalist crap.

Fear

I try to disengage from it all. I think the move in some countries to fire politicians for lying is a good start. I am powerless over the big picture but I do try to be the best person I can be on my micro level. I don’t have much hope for the future of humanity. One thing seems for sure, it...

Cheeseburger, fries and a chocolate shake. Lulu got a plain cheeseburger, no pickles at her request.