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No. I won't do it while I still have animals to re-home. I won't do anything that will put them in any kind of danger. If I go to a mental hospital now, some animals may become endangered. also, little brother still isn't making any money. So wouldn't be able to cover any bills or anything. I...

Sorry. Chilling

Probably the only real meal I'll eat today so maybe not a waste

I don't have to keep holding on like this anymore

Tacos were good Probably a waste of money. I haven't had enough money for years. Now it doesn't matter though. I didn't want to survive my childhood. Nestle the dog showed up and asked me too. So did the cockatiel. Rehoming the cockatiel

Won't end it at the monk's house of course. Love him

Going to go get some cheap tacos. Have barely been able to eat. Can't work and make food. Too exhausted

Have to stay at the house long enough for my little brother to move out probably. Because I have to close the electric bill account. So mental hospital after that Then probably stay in a group home for disabled adults or with that monk. No plans for what that really means. Will be likely to...

Got an email that the bird person helping me re-home my cockatiel found someone who can take her, so I won't have to euthanize her. Don't feel ready after handing away three of the five cats. Snake is already re-homed. lizard is going with the two remaining cats to my best friends house So...

Thank you There isn't anything left to live for. Just realized if I kill myself now, it won't hurt anyone nearly as bad as I am hurting for my animals. This whole year, losing pets to old age, losing my mom. Having to lose the entire rest of my family. Nothing compares to that. Therapists...

I never want anything ever again

I wanted housing and nice things for the animals. I looked at a house I used to want from the road today and realized there's no point in wanting it anymore. So. Yeah

Nothing else really matters except loved ones Maybe grief, maybe some form of "getting it" spiritually, maybe both Lack of care about housing is likely just numbness over how awful everything has been. Horrible decade. Glad my mom doesn't have to see this unless she/her spirit just wants to...

Thank you all Same. this should not have happened It is upsetting that my father's abuse and bad decisions is still affecting my family 20 years later. It is very upsetting. Nothing I can do. Just happy to have found places for my animals. I will have no animals. I do not ever want...

Thank you In tears today. Sobbing a lot today Three cats are now in their new homes. Taking the feral who can't be regular-released to a barn next Saturday. So just the two cats left, and they are going to my best friend's house. Hope that works out Realized I've been so focused on making...

I'm so overwhelmed that good news makes me feel panicky too, but that's okay. Plus this good news came with very mixed feelings

I got the last two cats who needed somewhere to go re-homed just now. I am relieved and so happy for them, beyond belief Obviously feeling Weird about it and have a ton of grief too, but the relief is amazing

Thank you. This is very difficult, but I'm at a point where I'm ready to lose the house. It's not worth it and sounds like my grandpa just wants the money out of it, according to the realtor. Just need to rehome the animals . Realtor claims he won't judge. Just needs 15 mins to see how...

I contacted the realtor myself by calling realtors whose names matched. He sounds weird but I am probably just scared in general. I scheduled an appointment for him to view the house next Tuesday. I texted my dad today and said I did that (didn't say on Tuesday) and specifically said he...

I'm not sure if there are resources like that here or not. But I can at least try to have a witness here

Adding more info I will be losing the house for sure. there were several months between April and now that they (dad's dad/my grandfather (home owner) and Dad's sister) said maybe they'd find a way for me to keep housing. It is not possible ATM So been worrying about what to do in general...

Thank you all I am planning on asking him politely to be outside. I think on some level, maybe just the narc in him, he wants to be nice and knows on some level this entire situation is his fault. Hard to say. I will play it by ear. For my protection I will ask politely but if he refuses and...

Just re-home animals

I do not want to live. Getting through this one step at a time.

Hello I'm sorry I've been less active in the forums. I am really struggling. I hope you are all okay ir okay enough. My dad, who was my main abuser growing up, to the point of causing psychotic breaks in multiple people, is being tasked by his dad to be in my mom's house. My mom died last...