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i was in therapy for 2 years. Second year 2 times a week. My t was amazing in the first year. I couldn't believe that I found someone so proffesional, smart and with sense of humor. After the first year I started to have flashbacks of sexual abuse. I was terrified and didn't want to deal with...

I don't remember the abuse. I don't remember my childhood room at all. I allwayes suspected that something happened that caused me to hide this memory of the room. But never looked for answers. Few months ago when the flashbacks started I was sure that my big brother maybe sexually abused me...

I want to buy my T a gift for the holydays. and i dont know what to buy. it cant be something too personal and honestly i dont know much about her (she doesnt tell anything about herself thank god :-) ) and her room is not very personal room so i dont realy know what will she love. i thought...

The question is for those of you who didn't remember the abuse but started to have sudden flashbacks of the abuse. I started to have flashbacks of abuse from my childhood few months ago. The flashbacks feel real as if thay are happening in the present moment. When I experience them I believe...

I started exposure therapy with my T. She said that we are going to write "the story" and read it many times. The thing is that I don't have real memories only the flashbacks. So I wrote on paper all the flashback , dreams, body memories etc. we had 2 sessions of reading the list of thing that...

I mean not in a bad or abusive way just feel his pressence as if he is near you? this person is dead for 4.5 years and i never sensed his pressence untill i started to work on the abuse in therapy. usually after this feeling there are flashbacks so i get ready. to be honest (and i am going to...

Hi everybody In the last few month since the abuse came up I had all kind of very strong flashbacks (body memories, pictures, emotional (especially feelings of horror). It was day and night and so terrible that I started to think about suicide although I am not suicidal. And then after massive...

I have a chalange with crying. I really want to cry my heart out. Even to scream. The last 2 month since the abuse came out were so difficult. I hardly worked or slept. I feel the tears but I can't take them out. I tried to scream in my car but felt stupid. I cried when my father died or my...

Do you feel sometimes that your T don't understand you or is distant from you? In the last few meetings I tell her about my flashbacks / recovered memories form the sexual abused in my childhood. It is very difficult for me to speak about it. Sometimes few seconds between the words. And after I...

I can't stand the new flashbacks. its driving me nuts. i am in therapy for about a year and about a month ago sexual abuse that I didn’t remember from childhood came up (honestly I wasn’t very surprise because I always felt something bad happened that I have to hide). the thing is that until...

I really love and respect my T. It's the first time that I trust someone and told her so many thing that I never told no one. I feel comfortable with her. But when the sexual abuse came up a month ago I was worried that maybe it's too difficult subject for her to deal with. And I asked her many...

I will not harm myself. It's not in my nature and I have responsibility for my son. But When my time will come to go I will go gladly to the other side. I don't understand why people want to live. Why they are so attached to life. What is it that I am missing. What they see and feel that I...

do you think that body memories indicates exactly what happened? I don't have any memory of the abuse. I have really terrible body sensations and it's hard for to believe that such terrible things happened to me by one of my family members. Thank you