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I wasn't sure where to post this, but I got an email last night from here saying they've missed me around and I hadn't realized its been so long. My dad died in January and it seems I've been in a dissociative nightmarish period for an eternity. Trying to get back on track and in therapy. I hope...

Hey everyone, i just wanted to wish all of you(yes every single one of you) a safe, and happy holiday season. For whatever holiday you celebrate. What is everyone doing for thanksgiving? What are you guys thankful for? What are some good organizations to donate to and give back this holiday...

I've had several setbacks moving forward in my recovery. I have abandoned therapy, have lost meaningful relationships and I have a severe lack of a support group in my real life. I am in dire need of some words of strength or encouragement because those close to me are unable to provide that or...

My partner is flying here from Texas for the weekend to spend time with me. She planned this way back in March and I have told her from then up until now that my life is complicated, I'm still dealing with an abusive family dynamic and I'm always one wrong move away from being subjected to harm...

Having crippling flashbacks to my head being slammed into concrete and breaking my teeth. I can hear the horrible sound and feel it again. Keeps replaying over and over. Tense from flinching. Rough day.

Over the last couple of months I've experienced 'brain numbness' upon waking up. My brain feels like it's swelling, and just a general numb feeling. There is no pain like you'd experience with a migraine and I can still feel my face. I have had several head traumas within the last 2 years so I...

I just want to thank you all for being a source of support, community, and recovery. I'm not sure I would've made it this far if it hadn't been for this site and some of the wonderful people who've reached out to me. It's been a really rough last few days but I'm grateful that I can come here...

I've been with the same therapist for about 2 going on 3 years now doing CBT work. However I often have periods during treatment where I feel like nothing is working anymore and I ditch/ignore her until things get bad again. So I feel that I'm never getting better. Although I have made some...

Comment with your favorite Metallica song or song lyrics. One of mine is from "The day that never comes" "Born to push you around Better just stay down You pull away, he hits the flesh You hit the ground"

I have recently been experiencing some feelings of sympathy and pity for my abusive parent. Which has ultimately started to erode my guard and disarm me. And I hate this feeling of being out of control and not being able to stop these feelings! I don't like being conflicted and gaslighted and I...

I have not been participating much since there have been so many traumatic things going on in my life and maybe it's crazy to feel this easy but I do feel a little guilty about that because you guys have been here for me in the past in tremendous ways. Im still struggling with a lot but I hope...

Not much more I can say but that. Life is hard.

Really needing to get some sleep, I'm exhausted. Going to try melatonin but has anyone experienced any negative side effects from taking it? I dont plan to use it as a long term solution but I need some relief.

Feeling like I'm in limbo right now. Just floating in nothingness. Not really sure I'm making progress. Not moving forward but maybe backwards. Seems like my normal range of emotions are gone for the time being. Can feel my willingness to participate in life, and in therapy/recovery slipping...

Was at work today and I get a text from my mom(the perpetrator of my abuse for context) saying "I'm out side why isn't your bike on it's kickstand etc.." And like..she didn't come in the store or explain why she was out there. It was just out of the blue and it set me off and destroyed my...

First day of therapy. I'm not sure how much I will disclose as I'm still trying to process it all but i think it went well...she is a woman and that makes me comfortable. She asked me what I was expecting to gain from this and what I could expect from her. And then of course small amounts of...

A year ago, the first day I was going to drive myself to college on my motorcycle, I got in a horrible crash that resulted in the loss and replacement of a body part. I stopped driving myself for a long long time afterwards but today, today I got back on and drove myself to school safely. I...

The fatigue and aches. Literally have had no energy to even clean my house or do my hair. My sister had to deep clean everything because I just didn't have it in me to do it. It took everything in me to take a shower yesterday. The over and under eating. The sleep disturbances. The sadness, the...

I feel like I can't trust my own perceptions sometimes. My mother, whom ive suffered my abuse from, seems to insist that she is different etc..but how do I trust that when I still fear, when I am motivated by guilt. When I still have a hard time dealing with my own compulsions to do things that...

guess im wondering why I am the only one out of my siblings who is or has been deeply affected by the abuse and shit that happened whereas they seem to have gone on with their lives. Why am I the only one who feels traumatized? Or who feels like I have not been able to live a fulfilled life...

Feeling low. Just want to enjoy life. And stop having so much anxiety. I want to stop feeling so hopeless. I want to stop being so triggered around my family. I want the nightmares and intrusive memories to stop. I want to feel something other than despair. I wish I felt like I could trust...

It was brought to my attention that maybe I should formally introduce myself here. So here I am. I have experienced child hood abuse both physical and emotional up until I was an adult. Months later after making an effort to leave the situation I was victim to a motorcycle accident which...