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Idk if I'm the only one but sometimes it feels like it. Anyway, ever since ptsd and working - coworkers just talk about how I am crazy, etc. At first it didn't bother me but after a while (a couple hours) in to work it kind of gets to me. I don't feel like I do anything too out of the ordinary...

(This might need to be redirected to journal postings, idk). My last relationship was in 2015 to the middle of 2016, and was insane and rushed. I ended up with an abuser and my personality was very co-dependent. I have been trying my best to recover since then. My ptsd has gotten better, well...

Effected, affected - I could never remember those right and don't feel like looking it up. Anywho, I'm one of those people that my motor skills are effected. Also, my epilepsy medication does that trick. Has anyone ever called you 'slow' aka 'mentally slow' due to your PTSD side effects...

For the past 2-4 days, maybe longer. I have felt very disengaged from my emotions; as well as people. I find myself faking emotions, facial movements and body gestures. Basically, I feel like a sociopath trying to act human. Or a space alien trying to fit in with humans. Every emotion and...

I asked for a raise and got it - yay! Second raise in the 6 months I have been working at this establishment. I am also on the road to repair my credit due to financing a car. Things feel as if they are turning around again. It took 2 years to finally repair my credit to this point. On another...

Has anyone tried being a driver for a delivery service? Whether it's people or food, lol. I have found it to be a great way to get out of the house, and make extra money. Although, I recently stopped delivering people. It got mentally exhausting trying to be a good car hostess. I'm pretty fond...

Last night at work, a co-worker snuck up behind me. She is an older server and isn't really supposed to go to the back anyway. I screamed in a panic and then had a mini flashback. Tears started welling in my eyes and I tried to read tickets and put food on the plates. Luckily, I am in an...

Just a tiny .50 cent raise, but it adds up. Plus, more hours! I'm just a little nervous I might get hyperaroused since I'm full time now (40 hours a week). The owner said that I've made an incredible improvement since being there. I was very anxious and jittery in the beginning, only knew very...

A month back I was driving and got into a really bad anger flash. I was running errands and my little tradition was to get a smoothie before hand. The driver a few cars up had 2-3 car length spaces ahead, so I was stuck in the street a little. It pissed me off that the driver didn't move up. I...

Not being sad or depressed. It just feels as if I'm not mentally here. I'm going through the motions of life, but my feelings are shut down for the moment. Today I had to fake every emotion. I tried to be as human as I could, and I'm sure it seemed odd. Does anyone else get this way? I'm not...

Has anyone else become more outspoken and an outwardly stronger person after PTSD? Before my ptsd I was a very quiet, low self worth and esteem. I was raised to be submissive to men and never had a strong female role model in my life. After ptsd something in me just snapped. I think it was...