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Hi, I was wondering if anyone else has suffered from hair loss as a result of PTSD? I'm only 28 and I'm a girl and my hair keeps falling out because I'm so often in a high state of stress. Then I get more stressed because I feel so unattractive with such short, thin hair (it's only just...

I can relate to everything you wrote here. I am sorry you feel that way, it's the worst. The only thing that calms me down is if I have a hot shower and then distract myself by watching television and eating comfort food. I also have a punching bag now to take out my hysteria/anger on it rather...

I just got my motorcycle license and am about to embark on an off-road motorcycle adventure in Colombia haha! Radise, I've skydived and never really saw it as a risk-taking behaviour either. Hashi, I'm sure that's part of it. I never really thought of it like that. If I'm living in fear I don't...

Hehe, balance has never been my strong point! Thanks for all of your contributions, it's so interesting to hear other peoples' perspectives :)

I think I do reckless things both when I'm feeling numb (so as to feel something) and when I'm already filled with adrenaline (so as to release some energy and to stop myself from actively and directly trying to hurt/kill myself, if that makes any sense). I've only just started noticing this...

Solara that's the problem - I have too much of it too. I'm not consciously seeking it, but with hindsight almost all my choices show that I'm seeking it on some level. I definitely don't want any more adrenaline rushing through my body. I have hypertension, heart palpitations, crippling anxiety...

Not really. I mean I guess in that sense I'm attracted to dark, emotionally unavailable, aggressively sexual men, and I'd say that's related to being sexually abused as a kid. But I'm talking more about the need to fill my life with danger and fear (like traveling to dangerous places...

As for my own self image, it is terrible right now. Physically I feel like an ugly old woman and hate every single part of me. Almost all of my hair has fallen out because my body is under so much stress from PTSD. I'm female and 28 years old. Emotionally I feel like a young child.

I was wondering if anyone else craves danger? I don't know if that's the right way to put it, but I feel like I keep getting drawn to do things which will put me in harm's way, but at the time it seems like an innocent decision. It's only later that I see it fit into the pattern.

Your photo certainly wouldn't scare me away :)

I think the main reason I don't want to tell some people is because I don't want them to feel burdened by it or to feel like it was inappropriate for me to talk about. Like I trust them and I'm close enough to them for me to feel like I want them to know, but I don't know if they see us as being...

Thank you xo

When you are completely consumed by PTSD, but don't want to tell people what happened to you, how do you explain your behaviour? Like if you can't go to work, or you can't hold a conversation, or you have no interest in doing anything, or you can't even say what you did yesterday? How do you...

Thanks everyone for your help xo

Hi Hashi, no I never knew there was such training available, but you've inspired me to google it! :)

That is very true. I realised after writing my post that I was feeling out-of-control of my own life, and I know that I'm the only one that can take that responsibility back. I have to stop giving my power away.

That is sort of what happened to me - I was fine hiding behind the facade of happiness but in the last 6 months that facade has cracked completely. I think you're right, and I think that now that I've finally discovered what it feels like to be understood (thanks to this site and the lovely...

Yes, that too! :/

Hi everyone, Since high school I've been doing the whole 'professional student' thing, which fills me with so much shame, but I think studying was my safe place. I'm not very good at coping with the real world. Now I have an arts degree and a law degree, but I can't think of any job worse for me...

I have explained to him that I get 'stuck' in my head sometimes, and that the words just won't come out. He really is very supportive, but it doesn't change the fact that he's having to talk to someone who is currently impossible to connect with. I don't know how many more weeks of this the...

Thank you, that is very good advice. Do you or anyone else on here have problems with clamming up in conversations? I actually have no idea how to keep this friendship going right now because I can't communicate with him at the moment. My whole life currently seems to be filled with my trauma...

I haven't found one that I trust yet, though I am still looking. The last one made me 'put my feelings in a jar on the shelf' so that I could 'get on with my life'...

Hi everyone, I'm really struggling with something. I met a guy who I fell in love with. He felt the same at first but now we're just friends. Meeting him was triggering because it was the first time that I ever wanted to get close to anyone before. Even now that we aren't moving towards a...

Hello everyone, my name is Nellie :) I am so glad I found this because I am going through something similar and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. On the rare occasion that I try to 'let someone in', I end up having a meltdown and either push/scare them away. The rest of the time I don't...