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@shimmerz you made me smile! I haven't smiled genuinely in days!!! Thank you so much for your responses. You have heartened me!!

Thank you, @shimmerz - I really do appreciate that feedback! I think I am doubting myself - you are right. I do feel like it will never be enough. I think I get in this mode of searching for the magic bean that will settle everything down. Like, if I were doing things right, why do I still...

Hi all - I wasn't sure which section this should go in! I'm having a really hard time right now. Normally when I have a hard time (in the past year or so) I can make choices to adjust and increase the self care and subsequently decrease the anxiety. Right now, however, nothing seems to be...

I've been thinking about this for a few days since I first read the thread. My own personal dx for the past three years has been Anxiety Disorder NOS. My therapist gave it to me after one intake session and that was that. We haven't actually ever discussed it, but it's on the receipts she gives...

I'm on a low dose of abilify (1mg/day - but I'm freakishly sensitive to meds. They were planning to go for 2mg, but then 1mg did the trick so we stuck with it). And I echo what has been said above! It has made many aspects of my life more manageable.

@TimeToHeal I can so relate to your desire to hurry it up! However, I have also found that when I've tried to push it has not gone well for me. It used to be that trauma came up maybe 1 time every 5-6 sessions. Then it was a noticeable shift to 1 in 3-4. And more recently it has been touched...

No matter what, you must go at your own pace! If disclosing certain things is too much, even in the aftermath, then I say allow yourself the option to not disclose. Or just disclose as much as feels comfortable... like, truly comfortable. I never would have thought it possible, until it happened...

@nahla1204 - I am glad you found this place!! I hope you'll find good advice and encouragement. @LilBit - Thanks for your response! I think you know what you need. I think there is also a difference between moving on and doing what you need to do in your life with an open space in your heart...

Thank you both for your responses! @|<3Georgeglass - I want to come back to your questions sometime soon because I think they will be really good for me to process and type out the answers. I think they will be really helpful for me. In the mean time, this afternoon I had a big breakthrough...

I think I've built my immediate life in such a way that it would be VERY difficult to cut myself off entirely from people close to me for ANY amount of time without them staging a large scale intervention (and I think I would appreciate it once it was over with). So, these days I can go maybe at...

Do you mean abusive loved ones or sane, supportive loved ones?

Have you taken enough time/effort to care for yourself in the middle of this? It sounds like you are an incredible support to him, but I'm worried about you, too!! There is a lot of good feedback in this thread for you, but my overall concern is if you are getting what you need in your life...

First!! Your honesty here in this very post is a HUGE huge big and beautiful and brave thing of "doing something." I think saying it out loud and letting it be real is one of the biggest, hugest things I've done in my own process, so I just want to acknowledge that and celebrate it for you...

I'm also going through an annual difficult time at this point!!! I am already feeling comforted seeing others in this thread who are feeling somewhat the same way. I don't have much else to add except there are good suggestions here, you aren't alone, and I hope you will be able to do some...

@jess_trustno1 !! I'm a few months late, but I only joined recently. I just want to say that I can deeply relate to your OP. The specifics are a bit different, but the overall toxic environment rings utterly true in my own experience. The thing that comforts and advises me most deeply when...

I hate dreams like this! They are so disorienting and distressing. I'm really sorry you had this experience. How are you feeling now?

I decided to start a journal because I don't know where else to word-vomit this particular thing. I've ducked in and out of here since joining, and I really love the community, but also can't guarantee how consistent I'll be. It feels strange to start a journal in that spirit, as I'm part of...

Hello beautiful people - I just wanted to send you a bit of an update! So, I talked to her on Friday. But before that, in the middle of the day, my frustrations with my therapist hit a boiling point and I ended up calling her to touch base and try to get a reality check. And in the middle of...

Thank you so much for these responses! They are actually already helping me feel more calm and rational. It helps to hear from you because you don't know me and therefore can't possibly have a secret agenda that you are trying to coerce me into following (lol isn't that, by itself, QUITE...

I just feel awful! Awful for her, awful for me, awful awful awful. We've been dating for about three and a half months, and this is always - always - always - (pattern noted) the point in time which things get hard for me. It seems to correlate with the point in time the other person starts...

I was chatting with a friend about my proclivity to faint, (for full disclosure I will say I have managed to not -actually- faint in years. I have become an expert at dealing with the early signs and heading it off before it turns into a thing. And I have spoken to multiple doctors about it [my...

I echo what has been said! Make sleep, water, and food your priorities. Do the bare minimum of everything, and gut it out until it is done. Take a full day off even if it feels extravagant. When I get into this space - and I've been here so many times it's really kind of sad, lol - my motto...

Processing with friends, changing my plans to feel more in control of my life, one of my favorite movies, good food.

Does anyone else have trouble sticking to budgets and/or having a hard time following through with things like paying bills? I feel like, when I'm really grounded it isn't hard for me to keep track of all the details and follow through and set up a budget and stick to it. But, I've had a few...

I think I have a different experience, though I can certainly understand and empathize with all that has been said here so far. The environment I grew up in was SO black and white, firm and unbendingly strict in so many ways, most of my black and white thinking has stemmed from things I've...