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I'm having a hard time being sober and dealing with memories and dreams,

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I got nothing eles on this, I spent my whole life on and off the street, being funcrional to the degree of working any shit job i could to survive, and only became a part of the machine after a rather succseslf attempt at getting clean after almost a year in the hospital and another on dialysis...

Unsure, sad, lonely, hopeless

Julep

Well I've sobered up, took a shower and am going back to group this morning, hopefully find out when therapy will resume? This sucks because I've found that I have started lieing to my therapist sometimes about certian things as I've kinda noticed sometimes they dip into the "c'mon you already...

I feel the same way alot, why I relapsed and started drinking again recently, but have stopped again and am already regulating better, dealing with long term abuse is so overwhelming and seems like nothing can ever make you feel better, I'm sorry you feel like this, the only thing that keeps me...

I was also traumatized during the process of finally being paired with a clinician and was very weary at first, the person I'm working with is great for the most part and was aware of my trepidations surrounding trust in the beginning, and let me know that, and expessed understanding it may take...

When I was initally paired up with my clinician, being responsible, having had researched my background, asked if it would be ok to touch my hand or shoulder to "bring me back" if I started having responses during sessions, I said I didn't know but would prefer if they didn't, After working with...

I've spent my entire life trying to run away from myself and life, If I was independently wealthy I think I may have been able to pull it off?, but to what end? Two years ago I hit the wall and walked away from everything and went into seclusion for almost a year, living in a remote bush camp...

Was good to get back to group, good facilitator, mixes up 20ish min guided meditations and drops thier own subtle backgrounds in, also makes paper strips with essential oils to hand out for people that like them, then did a grounding exercise, doing cycles of deep breath, counting back from 10...

Realized I had to obtain sobriety again so meditated on that extensively while breathing, then did some meridian tapping, then did some more breathing, then went and actually bought some groceries instead of booze and cooked, I love cooking and find it really grounding when I'm off, the texture...

Used to love to read, like for many it's really hard these days, but I've been trying to chip my way through "10 best anxiety management techniques" from Margret Whernberg, also have been exploring the world of books on tape/audio books. Which I like for now but would really like to be able to...

Found only,..

Thin

I'm feeling sober and the effects of post acute withdrawal symptoms,

Thats alot of frustrated @Justmehere , hope you're ok

Aww @RuffledFeathers I wish I could just start doing art again but that would mean having to interact with people, I'm trying to find a way around that lol, keep pluggin away, you'll flow again, you know it ? and yeah where I do group is connected to my treatment, I can put in for counciling...

I suppose to try and put a positive spin on this, if anyone is looking for information on the process of dealing with union LTD claims and inurance companies, and what to expect, I'm a wealth of resources. Good luck people, I hope you have a better time than I did ?

The only reason I even got my claim was because the last shrink I got sent to, by insurance company, that I had to travel about 600klics/350mls? To get to, from a bush camp, two islands out in the in the pacific, with no where to stay so I had to walk around all night til I found a roof I could...

I guess I'm a f*cking idiot for telling the government I had goals of recovery and hoped to be able to return to work, AT SOME POINT! I suppose you're NOT supposed to take a pro active approach to therapy and just say you're a broken f*ck and are useless. the person that ultimately called me...

I've found the process of being "decommissioned" and put on leave almost as dehumanizing and traumatic as anything eles. I f*cking struggled and worked hard to get where I was, paid my union dues and above and beyond put in my time and feel like I've been tied up and kicked in balls a millon...

Angry at myself worried about myself and exhausted

How's it going @RuffledFeathers ? I didn't make it group this morning because I was to hung over and it's an honour system must be substance free for at least 24hrs to participate thing so I woke up and started drinking again because I still have booze left, good times, I really need to get my...

I've always felt off about my name, I was orphaned at birth and it was changed by my legal gaurdians when i was still a baby, who thought it would be appropriate to let me know they had done so, as my actual givin name was apparently sub par? Kooky eh? When I have to write it down to sign...