Does anyone find hearing/seeing their own name difficult?

[Hopefully]

Does anyone find their name difficult?

I find it really uncomfortable when people use my name when talking to me and I often also feel embarrassed when having to introduce myself with my name, it doesn’t really feel like me or all of me. I know it is my name, I don’t dislike it but it just feels odd, almost like it is a lie. I don’t really feel a connection with it like I think you should. Also when I see it written down it feels the same; it is a weird combination of exposing and alien.

I was wondering if anyone else has experienced this?

 

[Teamwork]

Totally. I find it very difficult to answer or connect to it as being mine.

 

[Keen]

it doesn’t really feel like me or all of me. I know it is my name, I don’t dislike it but it just feels odd

I don't have this all the time, but I have felt it before on several occasions. Not sure what it is or what it means. I have DID so it is possibly related to that.

 

[grit]

Apparently this is a sign of identity issue and maybe as Keen above noted could relate to DID. I changed my name at 18 and never looked back but weirdly enough my family still calls me the old name and I do not feel relation or attachment to it.

I also recently read (cannt remember the link directly but may find it sometime) that this kind of aversion is also a trait of BPD.
not sure if that helps.

 

[Hopefully]

Thank you all for the responses.

It is definitely something that feels worse when other anxiety symptoms are high. I think the main feeling is a type of embarrassment.

I guess another quirk!

 

[KAllDay]

I have a problem with it, in that my voice sounds much the same as my mom's. I was blitz attacked and really still don't know the language for what happened when I was walking home from a friend's house, age 14. Amongst other things, he drilled me on all my information over and over, my name, address, school, etc., so I think maybe that's part of my problem. Also, in times of heightened stress and anxiety, I'll hallucinate my mom calling my name.
I'm also the youngest of five kids and was called mostly "X's little sister" for the duration of school, or a little something special for my dad's old age.
I chose to take a derivation of my name to go by, and it got better, but I still don't feel like me.
Hope any of this helps!

 

[bhm]

I've always felt off about my name, I was orphaned at birth and it was changed by my legal gaurdians when i was still a baby, who thought it would be appropriate to let me know they had done so, as my actual givin name was apparently sub par? Kooky eh? When I have to write it down to sign things or fill out forms sometimes I feel like I'm lieing or commiting forgery,

 

[whiteraven]

I have a huge problem with my *last* name. Always, always, always have people call me by my first name.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hate my name.

 

[Chris-duck]

I go by Chrissy cos I'm only ever called my full name if I'm in trouble. N i "relate" more to my mums maiden name than my family surname. But not enough to change it.

 

[ladee]

Funny this came up today. Was thinking how I do not like or relate to my real name.. just last night. I hate to be called by my real name, and would rather be called by my nickname as I totally relate to that name..

I was thinking one day, how we are even born powerless.. someone else sticks a 'name' on us... Shame we couldn't all have numbers or something until we are old enough to choose our own name..

 

[Abstract]

Don't really relate to my name or my body in a sense. I feel like some sort of abstract concept and the the rest of the stuff is just someone elses idea of me. Like someone is writing a story about me, illustrations included. I think for me its probably largely 2 fold. One is trying to avoid feeling like I had a physical self throughout my childhood. 2 is that I didn't interact that much with the outside world. I lived inside my head and names are not really required there. I do feel a lot less like this than in the past.