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This is a little weird. But I guess it's something I want to see if normal or not. The things that happened where my first sexual experiences. -I can't ever feel aroused IRL except if the person is of the same age, body type and acts the same way as *cough* and that the situation isn't 100%...

I'm having a lot of what I think are physical memories (ex: litteral d inside, phantom touches, pain, exc...) but I'm having doubts at times since I'm not distressed during them usually (I don't know if you're supposed to or no?) and that they're not always in the same intensity or vividness...

I'm Layla. 18. Im not new at all (have had other accs that I forgot ?). I'm the girl who said two months ago that I wasn't sure If I still had ptsd, but sadly it's gotten way worse and it's a known fact now. That's why I'm back on anyway. I have many questions and want to talk to people who can...

What I ment is that I have never been in chronic hyperarousal with chronic flashbacks and all that. But in the numb, repressing mode. I feel dead, depressed, ashamed, or numb whenever related things come up or feel a blocage when trying to think about it, or when triggers come up. Punctured...

If you remember me from my intro, I've talked this week a lot with my therapist about my symptoms and concluded I'm between hypoarousal and baseline (as in blocking stuff) most of the time. And I can snap into full blown, and I want to avoid that. Haven't had enough time to talk to her about...

Lol. I also have stupid triggers. Like an entire race, men of a certain body type, blue dress shirts and...magazines ?

Now yes, my therapist shared with me this diagram thing, I'm not sure I understood that right but she said most people where in constant survival mode with lots of more extreme anxiety symptoms and all. Before I thought I still had it since I do have reactions and all that and its's been months...

hi, I'm back again since I've very confused lately on all this, not sure if I still have ptsd (and just the non debilitating reactions left) or if I'm in a dormant phase. I'm not even sure if I actually had it now. I explained this badly and only small tings to my therapist and they said that...

I constantly feel like I'm this fragile porcelain doll, that's cracking in some place, and at any given moment will just fall and break into pieces. In more understandable terms, I'll say I feel weak and moody as a baseline, with some weird ball in the back of my throat, and I feel like at any...

Before I can ask the question, I just need to say that I was raped, assaulted and abused sexually. And that I do, at times have sex to hurt myself, with usually douchy way older than me strangers (just turned 18). Now whenever I start to do something with them, I get scared and feel really...

I never asked her who it was. She just said when she told me that she wouldn't tell me who it is. Now why this does bother me besides the obvious, is that I was raped along with other stuff and the thought that someone in my family who did do that could be there, makes me feel and think about...

I'm leaving tomorrow to go spend the holidays with my family, a big chunk of it. And there's a problem. I learned over the summer that someone in my family has done something horrible to an aunt when she was in her early teens (molestation). She said they were in the family, but she refused to...

It happened 11 months ago. It does really bother me, I do feel strong emotions linked to it but it's more like pain, sadness, feeling victimized, small and weak, or some weird hybrid feelings that I can't put a name on. Without mentionning, some types of numbness. It's possible, I have...

The title says it all. I only felt guilty once, when I was considering reporting it but that quickly faded away. I can't seem to feel ashamed of it either at all. I've heard the vast majority of people who've been through that experience shame and/or guilt and I don't. What's wrong with me?

Here are a few: Tu by Kudai (Spanish) Llevame by Kudai (Spanish) Vampiro by Blind Fool Love (Italian) Schrei by Tokio Hotel (German)

You know you have PTSD when: ? -You freeze and feel like a random passerby is going to come hurt you -When you see a kid with an older man, you have a sneaking illogical suspision that they are a pedophile. When they are probs just their dad. -You only watch two kinds of movies/TV: stuff that...

Movie: As over, as under (2014. Indiana Jokes like flic, in the catacombs of Paris. It goes awfully wrong and they end up in Hell), it sucked. TV Series: Family Guy. When you're bored, you're bored...

The Other Side by New Years Day: Or else what I listen to earlier, an emo kid's paradise. If for some weird reason you want to create a random playlist: Sleep (MCR), Sleep (MCR cover by New Year's Day), Rape Me (Nirvana), Lithium (Nirvana), Something (Escape The Fate), There's No Sympathy...

A whole pack of petit beurre cookies with milk… naughty me ?

I'm not going to go on what exactly happened to me as a whole, kinda obvious though, haha. You judge. 1) I've gotten my nipples "tortured" if I could say it like that, during an assault. It bled, still have a mark. gross, I know. That was almost a year ago, so definitely healed. Basically...

Anyway, I do some weird stuff around this whole thing and I want to know if anyone else does these things. Firstly, I was raped and have had a few other assaults. So anyway this is what I do, that's a bit … weird: -Often I need to shield my butt to feel like it's not happening. Which can be...

I have been diagnosed a few times with PTSD, and I do have symptoms. I think I have depression (because of it) but that's the only comorbid thing, im aware of. I'm guessing you'd like me to list of my symptoms, so I'll do it: nightmares (repeat of the things, or closely linked scenarios that are...

This may seem a bit weird, but whatever. Firstly I'll say I've been sexually assaulted and raped. When the first one happened, I felt this unknown unidentiable emotion that I never felt (I've had a life threatning before, didnt have that emotion) probs a mix of a few, but I don't know what it...

Anyway, I'm just low-key wondering if this happens to anyone else, and also what this means. So firstly, I'll say that I've had sexual trauma, and I've noticed I have some weird anxiety pattern that doesn't make that much sense. I've thought that maybe it ment that i was only 'placebo' wise...