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    Research Post-traumatic stress questionnaire :

    -How old are you? 58 -If you are still in school, does this disorder affect your schooling? If so, please give details I am no longer in school -How was this post-traumatic stress disorder triggered? domestic abuse (rape, strangulation, verbal, physical, and emotional) by my husband. -How...
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    Does Your Body Shake When You Talk About Trauma?

    I shake when I'm triggered or in distress from flashbacks. It's our bodies response to the stress. Animals do it too.
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    Thoughts - Is it normal to even read up on suicide? To feel relief from scratching yourself?

    I do it. When I was prescribed the sleeping meds, I looked up what would happen if I took a bunch of them. I wasn't wanting to kill myself. A lot of the time I wish I wasn't here. I want it all to go away, the pain, anxiety, depression, and trauma. I also self harm in a couple of ways, one of...
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    self-destruction

    Hello, I'm sorry that you're hurting. I can relate to what you're going through. I don't have answers for you. I just wanted to say that I'm here with you. You're not alone.
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    Sexual Assault Dealing with peoples perceptions on how I dealt with trauma.

    Hello Noname. I'm sorry you've been going through this. Most people do not understand trauma and PTSD, and they never will no matter how much explaining you do. Talking to someone about it or even just talking about how you're trying to cope, or that you're having a bad day can be traumatizing...
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    Navigating PTSD Anniversary at New Job

    I've personally never found someone that understands trauma and PTSD unless they've been through it or have a family member going through it. My boss claimed she was pro mental health. Her son is autistic, and she wanted to be supportive. I didn't tell her much. She already knew a bit because my...
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    Grounding in therapy - looking at T etc

    When I disassociate in therapy, which is often, I'm checked out, and my therapist knows he can't ask me to do anything right away. So he'll just talk. Ask me to take deep breaths, and eventually he will start asking me questions, nothing big, just simple little questions. He can tell when I'm...
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    Other Locked In A Box -v- Voluntary Bad Living Situations

    I wasn't allowed to leave the house a lot of the time. Yes to DV, assault, stalking (still stalks me 13 years later). I really never feel safe
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    What are you having for dinner? (wanna share your recipe?)

    Ben and Jerry's core brownie batter ice cream. Yes, it's been a tough day, so I said f*ck it and grabbed a spoon.
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    General Advice needed. New to dissociation

    Yes, for me, disassociation is often like "zoning out" or feeling fuzzy. Other times I am gone, somewhere else. It's my go to coping mechanism when I'm overwhelmed.
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    Gabapentin anyone?

    Hello, am I reading your post wrong, or are you taking a lot more Gabapentin than what is prescribed? Taking six 800mg caps at once is a lot. Please talk to your doctor if you need to take more than what they prescribed. I've been on Gabapentin for a few years now, and I have not had anything...
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    Help! No peace of mind. No joy left. Just fear. Sadness.

    I can say that I feel the same way. You're not alone. I can't remember the last time I felt happy. I struggle through life. I am so blessed to have a therapist that is not only excellent with trauma and PTSD, but he allows me to go twice a week. It has helped so much. I am also at the point that...
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    Nightmares you don’t remember & waking up feeling off, stiff, sore.

    I do this all of the time. I'll wake and know I had a nightmare and feel it in my body. I'll often wake up feeling bad mentally and start crying. I also remember nightmares. I like it better when I don't remember.
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    Is my PTSD therapist gas-lighting me into thinking I now have a personality disorder?

    Your therapist is ignoring your needs and requests. This is a huge red flag for me. You absolutely need time to ground and recover after EMDR and before you get up and leave the office. AND you shouldn't have to ask for these things. Your therapist should already know this and be asking you and...
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    Journaling and therapy- does anyone else do this?

    Yes!! I've read stuff I've written, and when I don't think I can read it out loud to him, I'll hand it to him and he'll read it so we can talk about it. I also email him. I am so grateful that he is open to receiving my info any way I get it to him. It really helps me a lot and without it, I...
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    Bad day

    I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know how hard it is because I'm struggling too. Those nagging feelings, bad memories and deep wounds do not go away. We can bury them, try to forget about them, but they will fester and eventually come out again and often worse. Your shoulders can...
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    I Lost My Cat and I Am Really Struggling

    I'm so sorry. I know how you feel. We lost our cat Sunday night. It's horrible. And yes, the house is so quiet without him.
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    Unable To Talk About Trauma Because Of Shame

    Deep breathing (box breathing) helps me a lot. It's amazing how it will settle your mind. Everyone's different, but it helps me a lot.
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    Research Please try out a newly developed online intervention - chance to win an Amazon voucher

    I just did this, and it was irritating. The timer thing was too long. I completed the whole thing, and ended up just scrolling on my phone while I waited to be able to go to the next screen.
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    I cut myself today

    I've been struggling with this for years. I go long stretches where I don't do it, then I go back to it again. It's a coping mechanism. What has helped me the most is therapy. I found an excellent trauma therapist, and he is so helpful and supportive. I work with him to find healthier coping...
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    Therapist Dominates The Conversation Topics?

    Yep, what Weemie said..
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    Other Let's talk about torture.

    They say trauma is trauma, and we don't need to be comparing it to each other. I think the torture is like that too. Torture is trauma. I'm on a long road trying to deal with everything that was done to me over a 20+ year period. Having support here is such a precious and amazing thing. No one...
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    Gabapentin

    Both my adult son and I are using Gabapentin. I started out with just Buspar, but I can only take lower doses of it. So we added the Gabapentin. It works great for anxiety. I'm taking 400mg 3 times a day, and I'll take an extra one if I'm feeling anxious throughout the day. I hate taking meds...
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    I cannot cry during my Therapy sessions :'(

    I don't cry either. I hold it all in, and I bury all the trauma, emotions, and pain. I know that's bad, but I've been working on that with my therapist. I've been in therapy 4 years now, 2.5 with my current therapist. I finally cried a little bit in front of him for the first time about a month...
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    Other Let's talk about torture.

    That's why I love this place, there's so much support here! Thank you @Weemie and @Freida
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