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So it seems I have a bit of pleurisy. One of my traumas was a badly performed op which took out part of a lung so I'm sensitive to stuff. I've been back at work 6 weeks and I've been overdoing it I guess. Feeling very tired and lethargic but trying to rest and recuperate. :-(

Sounds like your metabolism is really picking up. The body can deal with the odd blow out as long as the general trend is healthy. Well done you! I have a stinking cold, spending a lot of time in semi hibernation mode waiting to feel better. Have some chest pain today so off to the GP for a...

Yep, pop up blocker is active, going to try one of the other browsers. Thanks for your help @Kas_Can_Fly

So a quick question, I'm wondering if any of the techie people can help me. I was browsing on my ipad about the true histories behind a uk tv series 'peaky blinders'. The website linked to a page on the Daily Express website which is a British newspaper. I clicked the link and a horrible porno...

Don't feel guilty, remember most of us have spent a lot of time not listening to our bodies, and not allowing ourselves to have needs. The need for rest and nurture is the yin to the yang of exercise :-).

Hi eav, so glad you stuck it out - I know it isn't for everyone but it has massively helped me. I still sometimes have a few difficult days after a session, but these days I understand that I haven't done anything wrong. I have more trust in my T and in the process. That has built up over time...

Meet and fall in love with someone who loves me and treats me well. Feel a sense of purpose and optimism about my life. Access and safely express anger. Know with certainty the truths about my past, tell my family and feel their support.

I went to rugby training tonight even though I was tired, stressed and tearful. Had a brilliant time and feel energised by getting out of the house and being part of a squad. Coach and captain know about my PTSD / anxiety so if I melt down it's understood. I've not played any games but training...

I would second Euca's comments. It's hard to predict how you will be after sessions. Mostly what I want post EMDR is space, sometimes I need to sleep, or to have minimal sensory input. I also have several strands of trauma, and we started with the 'easier' stuff. This gave me confidence in the...

Welcome TTT, I know there are many of us who can relate. I hid my abuse even from myself for many years with dissociation. Kept up appearances, like a duck paddling and struggling furiously underwater while looking like all was well above. I built list upon list of achievements trying to mask my...

Done. Just a quick question. I distinguish between psychotherapy and EMDR and have answered on that basis. I'm not clear from the questions whether you make the same distinction. For me psychotherapy and a depression diagnosis wasn't helpful, I just went round and round and round getting more...

Wise words Zef :-)

I have been feeling the same about this, just no words. this weeks been a break through as I've typed somethings up. Feel such intensity of shame I cant bring myself yet to share it with my T. What if he asks questions? <panic>

Hi flyaway, hope you are feeling better now. I've had this a couple of times now and I have a few answers up my sleeve depending on the situation. It sounds like you handled it well, you weren't pressured into telling anything and you gave a firm but clear no answer so well done. Some people are...

Hi all, interested in joining this thread if I may? For me there's all kinds of connections between self image, self harm, body image, nurture, medications etc. I have a theory that trauma can make us self rejecting and we enact that in various ways (over or under eating / drinking too much etc...

Lots of us struggle with trust, and therapy should be a safe place to explore. By the time I was 8 I had consciously worked out that it was my job to meet everybody's needs and fix things by denying the existence of my own needs and becoming entirely self reliant. What a remarkable little person...

So interested to see this. Thought I was going even crazier than normal this week. I don't normally have much sensation down below. I describe myself as 'off' in terms of sexuality, always have been. In EMDR this week I got a new image of sexual abuse which I have always suspected. I managed to...

I find this an interesting thread. I have little or no sexual function day to day. Never really known what it's like to fancy someone or to feel sexual attraction. And yet.... The bdsm stuff sets something off in me which makes me feel confused. I've mostly steered clear as Ive worried that my...

Thanks Zaniara- I appreciate hearing from someone who has similar experiences. My appt is Monday so time to reflect without catastrophising. I can email him between sessions - he wont dialogue with me about it over email - but we can put stuff on the agenda for our session.

I'm now prescribed valdoxan, a melatonin based anti depressant. After nearly two years of very little sleep despite all kinds of sleeping meds at high doses I now generally sleep quite well. I'm rediscovering the ability to have dreams rather than just mini blink nightmares. Friends have tried...

Hi all, thanks for the replies. I think one of the scary elements is that my T has, in the past, been focused on me not dissociating. I don't have a dissociative diagnosis, but its always beena conscious or unconscious coping mechanism. My therapist seems to be able to see or sense right away...

So I've been doing EMDR for a while now. We've tackled some tough events but have left the abuse related trauma alone till I was stronger which I am now. When we do this processing I get pictures in my head or sensations in my body of abuse but it's physically impossible for me to speak the...

I would also recommend CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) which helps you recognise and change your destructive thinking habits. There are lots of good books, but a good teacher is better. If you are stuck without help, the icbt app is pretty good but you'll get more out of if you can find a...

They have all said what I would. I just wanted to add another voice of support and recognition. You are not alone in your struggles. I too had a lot of therapy for depression over many years which took me round in circles. I went right to the very edge of life/death where death had an...

Hey there, sorry to hear you are not in a good place. I know what you mean about passive and active and I have a couple of strategies that help me. When my self harm / suicidal thoughts are very strong and insistent I try to visualise them as a person. I envisage an American newsreader, with...