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Heather, I understand just what you mean by T's. I've had a plethora of them over the years, none of whom understood personality disorders, but also the depth of trauma that comes as a consequence to so much exposure to them, but there is hope. After I exited my last relationship with a...

Eleanor, I'm processing what I think you're asking, but I'll ask for further clarification: Are you asking me when I first realized that what my pathologicals were doing was wrong? It wasn't necessarily an 'event', but more a process developed over a lifetime of exposure to them. It was my last...

Hi Heather, I come from a pathological family too. The abuse, for me in my childhood, was a daily series of events that involved a variety of abuse, sexual, emotional, psychological, physical, spiritual....everyday. Pathological families are about extremes. The abuse is so horrendous day to...

Fadeaway, My father is a psychopath. No empathy, no guilt, no remorse, no regret. Exploitative, manipulative and intentionally harmful and sabotaging. Ironically, I'm far more forgiving of my mother, believing that her hatred was a reflection of the hatred from her own mother. But in my...

This thread has had a powerful impact on me, Raven I'm so sorry that all of you experienced such trauma. I've learned a lot about my own family of origin, the dynamics and personalities. My sperm donor is a psychopath. I believe this to be genetic and it is weaved throughout generations in my...

Paidfor, I think you're sensing a boundary violation. My T is someone I emphatically trust and part of that trust has been built in establishing boundaries. I would feel not only really weird, but extremely uncomfortable if my T 'offered' to be present at such an intimate event. Having had six...

Notsowild, I truly feel for you here and I hope that what I write is not discouraging to you. My PTSD is severe abuse related, from childhood forward by pathological people. My traumas and secondary wounding are countless. Abuse, for me, whether physical or emotional, is something I'm...

Hello, I'm late replying to this thread and I've not been on the forum for a long time. Anyway, I applied for SSI two years ago in March. Due to lifetime of exposure to pathological individuals and extreme abuse, I've suffered immensely with PTSD, Major Depression and I have several chronic...

Venusian, I'm blocked with my writing right now. I go to write a post, or in my journal and I just sit there. My block has been present for awhile. About all I can do is free write. But I've been reading a lot about C-PTSD. My therapist wanted to diagnose me with this, but apparently the DSM...

Thank you. Therapy, I've done EMDR and it didn't work for me. My therapist said it was because I was 'too aware'. I don't know what that means, and didn't ask her to elaborate too much, just moved on. I'm changing therapists and am nervous about this because I got a lot of work done with my last...

Hello Everyone, I have been here just lurking and reading once in awhile, but more often lately as I Google PTSD issues and certain threads on the forum pop up. I'm really afraid to write this right now. I find myself in a place of great humility, shame and intense fear and guilt. My PTSD is...

I haven't been to the forum in a long time. It looks so different I nearly missed it on the Google Search! Anyway, . . .I've just recently been coming to terms with the impact PTSD has had on my life. It was easier to blame my chronic illnesses, and to 'toot my horn' about that because it was...

So glad I found this thread, although it's pretty vacant. I AM an HSP. My therapist refers to this as Sensory Integration Disorder. This is real and while its references are mainly targeted to children, there is information online with regards to adults who have this disorder. My therapist...

Abstract!! YES, YES YES!!! Thank you!!!! That is exactly it!! EXACTLY! Thank you for expressing what I could not!!!

I can do this, Thanks a bunch. I'm aware that it's not mental illness, but disorder. That's how the DSM defines it, although I'm not a huge fan. I'm a student of psychology and I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing, black and white again, but anyway, I'm not sure there are...

Squirrely, You have options, it's a matter of CHOICE. What I mean by that is, you COULD go home. Do your parents understand the gravity of your PTSD? Have you sat down with them and told them how you feel and what you think is best to do for YOU? I'm a mother of six and sometimes, my kids just...

Hashi! That's GREAT news! Sending angel love towards you, hoping and praying for the best for you!

Hello, I'm currently in a struggle that I'd like to share and hoping for some feedback. It's taken me awhile, but I feel very frustrated with everything I read about PTSD. I feel it's peppered with an underlying "you'll get over it' tone, rather than "here's how best to manage' tone. Let me...

Hashi, Here's hoping that you can get the script you need to be able to be functional and comfortable. I trust that you know what's best for you. Too many are tossed antidepressants or over medicated with psyche medications, but for some people, benzos truly work for a variety of reasons. To...

Gio welcome! Personally, I have seen a lot of folks use marijuana for anxiety and use it responsibly. Any drug we take, even some that are not considered addictive can become so when it relieves psychological pain. I was an alcoholic two years ago after a ten year abusive relationship and...

Hashi, I feel very sad when I hear that doctor's will not prescribe for fear of addictiveness. This implies so many things, but more importantly, it doesn't give you the opportunity to engage in a regulated prescription to see if whether or not that would indeed be the case. I see a lot of...

Hashi, I understand, however I disagree in that the safety need are the same in adulthood as in childhood. How do I know this? Because I've experienced both, so I have a foundation for comparison. I don't share that to be argumentative either, but I do know I was in a different stage of...

Shell, Fantastic post and I completely relate. I regress when triggered as well. I do understand the concept of the inner child. The problem with me is that I am completely dissociated from that little girl. I have not reached the point where I can get in touch with her emotionally, although...

Hi Still Here, Because I'm a domestic violence advocate, my perceptions might be a little different, as well as your post being somewhat of a trigger. Having said that, I can only share what I see and think about your situation, but realize there are many missing elements in what you've shared...

I'm really struggling with my PTSD lately. I am so grateful for this thread.