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Shame. There is no end to mine. It is suffocating me. There is no attempt at happiness, no hope for healing that does not get smothered by it. There is only shame and its louder, more obvious cousin - guilt. I haven't come here for a long time. I am too ashamed. I know I don't belong here. My...

Thank you @Cashew! For your kind words and your great, great idea. When hubby comes home I will sit down with him, and we will talk about all the many concerts he went to, how afraid I was some of the time, and how it always went down. That is exactly the thing I was looking for. Will update...

What kind of excercises are that? @Cashew I always have a hard time fighting my irrational fears with rationanility. If that would work, they'd be rational fears ,no? I am fully aware I am being "hysteric" but its getting worse and worse even though I know it makes no sense. :(

Its really hard not getting used to being hated. My grandmother, who raised me and I only came out after her death, would be very happy about that terror act. She liked to tell me how Hitler burned the gays and how she wished that never stopped. Jews were not SOOoo bad, she said, but gays? Burn...

He falling and people trampling on bis back and shattering it. Thats the most recurring intrusive thought. Does a good job stopping me from sleeping. Just pops up, a horrible mini movie, on replay in my head. He has broken his back in a swimming accident once, its all okay now, but, well...

Hello, I could really use some advice. So, my partner is going to travel to a heavy metall, rock n roll event in vienna one week from now, its a birthday gift, and I am getting unspeakably anxious about it. Intrusive thoughts, nightmares, flashbacks to learning people have died, the works. My...

"only 20 minutes of action" That is such a telling phrase, wow. He phrased it the way a fratboy would talk about sex. "Jo man, totally gonna get some action today." He used this phrase to talk about the rape his son committed. I think that is not just a father protecting his son @EveHarrington...

Is this all happening in a safe way, or are you guys on the way to traumatizing and screwing up your kid? If you cannot answer this, you should consider getting a professional opinion or two, asap. The future of your child, and the oh so terrible dangers of "sissyphying" him, is more important...

Here is a letter that a female friend of the rapist sent to the judge. It's quite .... something. Because you see, his rape was not rape-rape, it was just rape. So he really should be cut some slack. It seems the dude is surrounded by people thinking he can do no wrong...

Indeed. Thats why I wondered if my penchant for dissociation could play a role. First I made this thread, which I then showed to my partner, whom I did not tell before how I felt. We had a good talk about this. I have also started to draw, when I would normally surf. These first 2 days it seems...

Completely agree. I never cared for Ghostbusters, but by God I hope the new one is gonna be good. I hate to see all those people go "TOLD YA SO!" Eugh. And that "You are ruining my childhood!" nonsense, you saw that too? I find that line really telling. They are scared to death that something...

Thank you guys so much. Amazing people you are. I have decided to pick up a new hobby. I always wanted to learn how to draw, and this is what I am starting to learn now. If I only cut down my surfing time 50% and put that time into drawing, I will be friggin Picasso end of year. I have also...

Hello. So, I am very ashamed having to admit this :sorry: but I think I have a problem. I waste way, way too much time in the internet and is has become an issue. I can just lose hours and hours at a time, not doing anything usefull at all. Not learning anything, no quality entertainment or...

I can relate. What do I do? Hmm. I try to understand the wish. For example, today I watched a show with a scientist character in it. I wanted to be a scientist for many years, until I realized I can't. Not with my learning disability. But what I can do is figure out what that character had...

@gizmo Totally right. Does the bad behavior of people have a impact on you too? Sometimes I feel like a big bad baby having such a thin skin. :( @EveHarrington Agreed. Maybe we have always been such a culture, at least on the level the internet is operating on, just now its more easy to notice...

Yeah, its so vile. And if it were just, you know, not liking stuff that would be okay, but its that affinity for harassment, threats, insults that is just so crazy. Surreal even. Grown man threatening to kill people about a story of a comic book character, that has not even finished it. Good...

http://birthmoviesdeath.com/2016/05/30/fandom-is-broken A great essay about vile and disgusting online culture, concerning pop culture. I am someone who really loves videogames, tv shows and movies, and I am saddened about what is going on. It has come so far, that I really need to watch where...

There were many people trying to tell you what is going on in your other thread.

That is a very important point in my opinion. @sonicwhite you seem to think you have figured it out, that you know what is going on. But a drug habbit can do really confusing and surprisingly unexpected things to you. Its honestly the best reason to get clean there is. One needs to take stock of...

Do you have any particular questions, anything concrete you'd like to ask? Any answers given so far you reject, which is fair, but for the life of me I can't figure out what you are hoping to find.

Thats certainly one way to describe it. It can manifest in many forms, and your description connected with me.

.... but ..... then ..... why post here? Besides, your issue could be better helped with on a drug forum.

Thank you so much yall! I took so long to answer because the wonderful responses overwhelmed me. Needed time to breath. I cried reading your response. It meant a lot to me. I really want to write. Stories, books. I just cant. The focus is not there. Its terrible. Its the one thing I hope I can...

Just a counterpoint: My partner has learned to adress issues exactly that way, and it has really helped us. So, just want to say, it varies from person to person.

Yes, definitely and constantly. It is very annoying. Sound and bright light is the worst for me. Concentration is my biggest issue at the moment, and I feel those two issues are connected. When I finally approached a doctor to get help with all my stuff, I thought I might be on the autism...