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I feel you, and I like the way you write. Here is to a better tomorrow. *Cheers*

That is great to hear! I never thought I'd be a Cat person until I had a Cat... Now I have 3, and I love them! I hope you find a sweet kitty to call your own. They truly are great companions! As far as names... Sparticus sounds cool, lol! Hope your day is going great as well!

Awe, sweety, as you get older, your brain goes through changes. You become more mature. As you go over your past, things you did not understand & things which were really traumatic pop up. PTSD is like a full circle; you think you are over it or that your "past is behind you," you do well for a...

I feel this way EVERY day. I made a huge mistake by continuing to live in the same town as my abusers. I furthered this terrible mistake nearly 4 years ago when I convinced my husband that the best choice for our family was to rent-to-own my childhood home from my parents. Would have been fine...

I feel you. I agree with you. I support you. I mean it. I feel the same way when experiencing the intense cycles of PTSD. I feel the same way about life, stuck while everything goes in a whirlwind around me. I too, become guilty regarding my children; wishing I were capable of making deep...

It is parental instinct to shield our children from any kind of pain, emotonal upset/strain/stress included. At the same time, parenting adult children involves being honest and open despite the stress that may come with the truth. If this person was and still is an important person in your...

Do you fear death because of the painful ways you watched your grandparents and father suffer? After much obsession over death, myself, I have come believe that one of the only guarantees in life is a casket. Once I came to that realization, I further decided that I have spent far too much...

I experience this as well. Both due to the parental shaming/guilt-tripping, but aslo because my parents and their lawyer made me lie and tell police that "nothing happened." 4 years later they went back to my abuser and asked him to marry me. The warped situation makes me fearful at times...

Thank you, Solara. That is exactly it. I worked so hard to stay out of that world and I was blindly dragged back onto it. The little girl inside was reaching for her rose colored glasses. The adult me needed more input on the matter. I can see Arfie's point, she may just be in a rosy world. I...

Financially, times have been tough these last few months. Being self-employed & desperate, I posted on my Facebook page that I needed to find work ASAP, odd jobs, housework, etc. Soon after, I was contacted by a girl I met through "my molester" that I hadn't spoken to for nearly 9 years-...

I have never tried this. I think I will. Thanks you guys... I haven't known what to do with all these body memories, and they have been haunting me a lot lately. This technique you have presented sounds very helpful.

I am going through this too and I didn't understand it. It also (is it this way for you?) makes me feel like what I am experiencing could be invalid because my memory has no recollection, like there is no recording playing in my head, just my body physically/nervously changes. After the episode...

I know what you mean. It is really hard to keep it together when you are a walking ball of anxiety. Going out in public, grocery shopping, even just driving around, can become so difficult when bad things keep coming your way. I hope you will find the time to post more. Letting it out helps a...

Yes, many kids do and grow into adulthood continuing to try to gain parental approval from parents that will never give it up. We love, give excuses, blame ourselves, and rhuminate over the past wondering, "Where did I go wrong? What did I do?" We didn't do anything wrong. Our parents...

I was abused by my neighbour's adult son from 12-16. There were other abusive men in my life during that time, also. In between being molested, I was raped of my virginity by my friend's cousin (whom also lived on the same road) at 13. Soon after, (literally the next day) my neighbour's son...

I know exactly what you mean. Sleep is so hard to come by around here. At least for me. Between 12:00 am-5:00 am I am up at least twice an hour to help my 3 yr old and 18 mo. old in their sleep. Once they settle down, around 5:30 am or so, I am up every 20 min. telling my ADD twin boys to be...

Laurie, I must first say, hang in there! Parental alienation is a very real and sad thing, but the best thing you can do is remain available for your children. They need you more now than ever before! Maybe after a little time you would be able to have therapeutic visitation or family therapy...

Thanks everyone. :) I really look forward to being here.

Thank you two for the kind words. It is a juggle, but it keeps me on my toes, and keeps me functioning! If I didn't have my kids, I would be so lost. I take parenting and mothering seriously, it is a huge responsibility and I want to do it right. I want to let those five kids have a happy...

Welcome! Thank you for sharing your story. I'm very sorry you went through that. I can relate to parents not listening and the anger that remains even later in life.

I have never been able to find a place where I can open up about my personal experiences with childhood sexualization, sexual abuse, molest, rape, and sex slavery, and have a community of Support to fall into. I am a 23 year old mommy of five children and wife of five years to my loving...