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I'm going to advise you not to go off your meds cold turkey and not without doctor supervision....

I have been feeling quite broken and unlovable lately. I have returned to old behaviors of having meaningless sex with guys because that is what I had made myself believe my value was. After being raped the first time, I believed lies of the fact of my not deserving to be loved and treated well...

I have kept quite a bit of my story to myself or would share little snippets to certain people. I have shut off so much of my past to try to escape it. I am hoping to be able to get my story out on here to possibly help reduce some shame, anxiety, stress, etc about my traumas and past. There may...

My physical abuser was put in prison but the man who initially raped me was not convicted. I didnt press charges as I was 17, drunk and had not eaten in a few days. I lived in denial for quite some time.

See I'll get both, the tightening and throw up nausea. I personally would much rather have tightening! Lol

For the past 2 weeks I have been having recurrent bouts of nausea. I never actual vomit but it just ends up being a constant state of nausea. I've eliminated that it's not foods or medications. It typically seems to occur after thinking about my abuse, seeing a show with abuse, talking about it...

I used to be on a huge cocktail Zoloft Atarax Topamax Seroquel Buspbar Trazadone I have been off that combination for about 5 years now. I am now just on zoloft 150mg which is less than the 250mg in that cocktail. I was very over medicated and quite zombie like. But at the time it was the best...

Thank you so much for that response! I think a big key in this is being with someone you trust and it not being a casual thing (which I'm trying to force right now). I've never shared details about my rapes and maybe that will help. I have never talked about them with a man at all. They will end...

Thanks Em will message you!

Lol I technically still am a young adult-26. It's strange because I do enjoy it and I do feel good. Then I subconsciously tell myself I'm not allowed to do so! I'm sure the answer would be different if I was in a committed relationship and I didn't have the issues of telling myself that I am a...

I apparently have a hard time with consensual sex. I was forcefully raped at 17 and had controlling/manipulative rapes with my son's father at 21. Since the first rape, I had a very rough time ever saying no whether it be from the very beginning not wanting to have sex period or during by not...

I am not sure if it is because I am getting to core trauma work but I have been feeling completely broken lately. It is quite ironic because I want to be held and comforted by a man (I am single so there isn't said man available!) yet the trauma that I deal with has men being abusers. I feel...

@Solara, I wondered if PTSD was curable or if it just becomes manageable. @TimeToHeal Thank you! I figured there are probably quite a few addicts/ED people since they typically go hand in hand with trauma. Yes this is the first time I have worked with a trauma therapist, I have been in therapy...

@Snowwhite, I just joined so I haven't started a journal yet. I will soon though! Would definitely love to talk more but I don't know how to message on here yet! So go ahead and send me one, I know where my inbox is!

Hi everyone, my name is Nicole I am 25 and have had quite a bit of trauma in my life- rape, sexual assault and domestic violence. I have spent almost 10 years running from my traumas and have since incurred new traumas after the initial. I have overcome drug/alcohol addiction (7 years sober) and...

Snow white it is unreal how similiar your story is to mine... my jaw dropped when reading this because it is almost identical...