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Thank you for all the thoughts, thanks for sharing all your experiences and I hope someday they not only find a cure, but find another method rather than medicate and talk.....I hope you all have a better journey, a better life somehow a better way of picking up the pieces and making a better...

I have done many things for years and years such as therapy, medication, no medication, yoga, exercise, dieting, taking up a new sport, vacation, distractions that are fun, exposure therapy, cognitive behavior therapy, talk therapy and recovery ranch retreats and you name it I have done it. If...

Insomnia is the worst, I can't focus on anything besides fear.....I can't remember the last time I slept more than a couple of hours, I am so tired. I am glad you are able to study, I could study if I did not have anxiety.

You are right Caroline, exhausting

It doesn't get any better. Meaning, living with PTSD does not get any better, you experience permanent symptoms and they fluctuate in intensity and come and go to different degrees and chips away at the quality of life.

The question for me focuses around quality of life. So far, quality of life has been poor and I suffer from PTSD symptoms that aren't temporary, but permanent. I know of no cure, and so the level of suffering goes up and down, but never goes away. Ever. This isn't a matter of not wanting to...

Nightmares keep me from ever wanting to sleep again and I do not dream about the trauma, but I dream about how I felt during the trauma and create my own scenario somehow when I am a sleep. For instance, my head was held under water as a child as a form of punishment, I do not dream about this...

I am sorting through my thoughts, thinking about things. I love my kido more than anything, I think once he gets married and I know he has completed college and financially okay, i think I am going to explore other options for myself. You know, they have death with dignity for incurable physical...

Wow, your answers really helped me, very impressed with everyone's answers and thanks for the support. It is so hard to put into words. I liked what you had to say about knowing that I am not alone, that also it might not be random, that maybe something is triggering it and I liked the part...

Sometimes I go through these periods of time, maybe a day maybe a couple of weeks where all of a sudden I feel intense feelings of awkwardness, like people can see how horrible I am feeling about myself. It feels like all of a sudden I am out of my element, completely vulnerable like I don't fit...

Thanks for your thoughts everyone

I am so sorry if this is confusing, but thought maybe someone could help? Sometimes I experience false flashbacks or maybe it's day dream, or I disassociate about stuff that never happened and it is traumatizing where my son is dying or just extreme situations. It is like my body remembers...

I go into lock down mode, lots of triggers at night...locks on doors in room and closet. Have to fall a sleep to a night light which I turn off later.....night is a huge production for me. It is just my son and I and he is sleeping peacefully in the other room unaware of my terror I have at...

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I went on a fall season day chair lift ride up the mountain and completely had a panic attacked. It scared me so bad, I had the flight or fight feeling that intensified.....my brain ran through all illogical possibilities of how I was going to die and what I needed to do to live. Completely...

I decided to eat healthier and exercise more to see if it helps relieve some of my symptoms of anxiety, this week resulted in better sleep, less panic attacks. Last night was the first night I slept a full 8 hours in years.....of course my week was a lot easier too with less triggers. I was able...

Please read all of this. I didn't like your topic at first and it made me have triggers and become very angry. I had a lot of strong feelings when I first read this. My first abuser was 12 and I was seven and I was raped. He doesn't get to play the age card and minimize my experience because he...

LOVE THIS POST, parenting is healing and so excited for you, first steps are special!! :)

Thank you for your support and encouragement, it means a lot

Thank you, sounds like a good read, I will look into it. I sometimes wonder how could my parent have gone so far as to drown me? I almost died many times. What could I have done at seven that was so bad? I never remember what I did. I never have that instinct when I see my son, there is nothing...

It is a challenge to live with ptsd ,but living with it and parenting is a whole different ballgame. I can say that being a parent is the biggest joy, the best job and by far the greatest part of my life so far. My concern is, my son is fourteen and I am triggered when I discipline him. He's a...

It feels like trying to breath under water, it feels like a life prison sentence for something you didn't do. You have good days and bad days but your never normal, because you fight the symptoms. Sometimes defeated at the edge of hope ready to jump, sometimes you are on the brink of a break...

Yes, I experience this. Sometimes I have to into the bathroom and cry.....if smokers can have 15 minute breaks every hour than I can go cry for my 15 minutes and pull it together. I take time at work and go to a quiet place. It is made worse because I don't sleep very well because night is the...

Wow, thanks for the links! Psychogenic seizures sounds like the worst. :( I just looked it up. Could it be possible I have both too? I wonder why my Neurologist doesn't ever tell me about stress when I tell him how I am feeling. He says it's "par for the course." Did both your types of...

The age of dissociating started from the first time of experiencing the trauma. I never went to a "happy" place, I went to a place in which I could cope, it felt like cement prison walls, an empty lonely place where I forced myself to think about nothing else. There were no rules on how to...