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    Trauma therapy is.................. exhausting

    I have to vent to someone about it because we feel alone. Based on the last two weeks and how a part was finally able to speak out loud and formulate a sentence to tell our t something. I don't like using the word progress and I'll leave it at that. What I do want to say is how physically and...
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    When vulnerability releases

    I really hope this will make sense. I have been in trauma therapy for a long time. I have many "parts" that exist within (did). And they are all different from each other - some outgoing, some young, some not so nice, one evil, and lost goes on. We like our therapist and she helps us a lot...
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    "Parts" and their SI

    Thank you for responding. Everything sounds familiar and I wish they would cooperate more.
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    "Parts" and their SI

    I/we have many complex parts within our system. Each one of them having different thoughts, experiences, likes and dislikes. The list goes on so yes, it's a lot to keep up with all of them. The question I have is: does anyone have parts that in times of struggle they immediately start...
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    Depressive thought - Not fitting in & fairytale idea of what life will be.

    For years now, we (did parts) and I have always been convinced we just don't fit into this world and truly feel we're in the wrong one. I know, it sounds like I'm crazy, probably are. Or perhaps it's the overall disappointment I have with how my life turned out. As a kid, you have this fairy...
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    DID DID and suicidal ideations

    I'd like to blame the way me and my parts have felt for probably a month on the changing of seasons. We wish it was that simple but nothing is with us. Suicidal ideation has consumed our thoughts all week. It's almost as if some of the parts started feeling this way since since preteen years. I...
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    Increased depression and trauma work. Does this create the "Perfect Storm?"

    I don't really understand what is going on. I can have a "good" day which for (us)(parts) means little to no crying, a tiny bit less affected by our environment, a little more patience and less desire to want to go to bed. But, don't assume every day works the same. The next day can be totally...
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    Beyond Words - Seeking Relief from Overwhelming Mental Turmoil

    I don't necessarily feel better after crying. The parts are not working together and are all feeling different things or snippets of past memories, agitated all in all, overwhelmed. Etc: Trying to be more present during sessions but all that does is make us cry. It's not my t's fault, it's years...
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    Beyond Words - Seeking Relief from Overwhelming Mental Turmoil

    There's so much spinning and spinning around in our head right now that we go numb. Overwhelmed by anything and anyone. I'm convinced the days we cry before work is because my parts don't want to. It's been a struggle lately and I'm trying to do different things to help and cry and cry wishing...
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    Trauma therapy confusion

    Hi, I've been in therapy for a long time and probably should have been in it a lot sooner. Anyway, "we" as in my other parts have been working from the ground up so to say. From getting diagnosed with did, to learning what parts functions are etc, how to communicate etc etc brings us to about...
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    Everyday is a burden

    Thank you so much. Maybe one day I can help others who just want to know someone is out there even if we don't know each other
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    Everyday is a burden

    I know I have several things to be grateful for: overall health, healthy good kid, animals that I believe love me. But every morning when I wake up the day already feels like a burden. I cry getting ready for work, I cry traveling to work, I cry at work and then come home and continue. I try and...
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    Confused and depressed

    I've felt different in the last couple of weeks. I will point out that I have "parts" DID and it's not common for them to all feel eerily similar. Snippet flashbacks occur, some of my difficult parts blurted a secret out during session and was not planned. I just feel like I have no energy, no...
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    Confused and depressed

    I've felt different in the last couple of weeks. I will point out that I have "parts" DID and it's not common for them to all feel eerily similar. Snippet flashbacks occur, some of my difficult parts blurted a secret out during session and was not planned. I just feel like I have no energy, no...
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    Nightmares you don’t remember & waking up feeling off, stiff, sore.

    Thank you for your response. I believe I often wake up stiff as a result of sleeping in a fetal position as well as my body unable to fully relax even after taking pm meds. I am easily startled and instantly panic by gasping for air, confused, terrified and cry. My husband has tried to avoid...
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    Nightmares you don’t remember & waking up feeling off, stiff, sore.

    Why hello, Lately I've been waking up with a strange feeling of something happening during the night. I feel like it's nightmares but the kind you don't remember or only have clips of it but again it doesn't make sense. We wake up feeling "off" or our body will ache, or we're really stiff...
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    And she's back

    The auditory, visual and tactile hallucinations have returned. When one of my parts is brought up in therapy no matter if it's us or our t, the symptoms appear. I have already gone to the doctor and was cleared and its determined psych related. It's a part who probably knows everything about our...
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    DID DID and Psychosis?

    It's been awhile but I'm back or to be honest - it's me and all the parts. I'm curious if anyone with DID has or has had psychosis before? About a month and a half ago we started getting itchy more noticeable when we were in a loud overstimulating gym watching my daughter play sports. I didn't...
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    Transitional Objects

    Unfortunately, it's only getting worse with age. I feel like I've tried so many methods to decrease the feelings of abandonment- specifically towards my T. But, it's not just "me", I have did parts who all react differently to it and it causes immediate chaos both externally and internally...
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    Returning to myptsd.com

    And now I'm back. Probably because I'm lonely and long to live in a world where I can be all of me. I know that will never happen. Today was a tough day in therapy. My mind took us to a dark black place feeling like we weren't physically in the office and it's terrible. It's happened before and...
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    Returning to myptsd.com

    Does anyone else find themselves taking breaks from this website unknowingly only to return? That's (us)(parts). We're on all the time then not at all then back again. I'm assuming it's a result of no one in our everyday life would truly understand our struggles without judgement. Is that a fair...
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    DID DID parts and the therapist

    Question for anyone out there with DID: how does your "angry" parts interact with your therapist? Or do they? I have many different parts within the system that makes us who we are. Most of them are tolerated despite having their own issues and struggles. Then there's the others. Their ridgid...
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    After session is there is always something that wasn't said?

    Does anyone, especially those with did/parts find that once the session is over there is always something that wasn't said. And the need for her to know the missing information becomes almost an obsession with some parts until we hear from her or time passes until the next time. I have many...
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    Trauma therapy question - How important is consistency?

    So I've been working on past trauma in therapy for awhile let's say. It's a slow process based on having DID amongst other things. I have been in therapy for over 10 years with the same person who I like. I haven't been working on trauma the entire time. But I'm frustrated and wonder what others...
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    I hate the holidays

    The holidays have become dominated by retailers who feed into our culture of never having enough. Xmas crap was in the stores before Thanksgiving day. And why the hell do we need one day a year to buy things we can't afford when we already have too much? What happened to simplicity and working...
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