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I hear you loud and clear! ;)

Aw, heck, I’m honestly considering wrapping my entire house with razor wire....might feel a little safer. Feeling like I’m living in hell. No appetite. Insomnia. Seeing therapist this week. I might be able to get a sign made to put on my door that indicates that someone with PTSD lives here...

Feeling a bit shaken up this morning… Woke up from a dream in which I was living in a totalitarian dictator ship, and any citizen who wanted to live was required to strangle a small dog to death without demonstrating any emotion. If the citizen refused to kill the dog or showed any emotion...

Is that study still ongoing?

I could honestly believe that an AXIS-II, Cluster B would do that. I find the idea of an NPD having offspring for the purpose of some kind of perverse self-gratification quite plausible. Thanks for raising the question! I suspect I was conceived for the purpose of serving AXIS-II, Cluster B...

Ooh....now that was good!

Therapist said I am in an unhealthy situation due to traumatic memories where I live currently. If she is so sure I should move, I’d say, “As soon as you pay for the new digs and all moving expenses!”

That was a real chuckle! Forgive me for laughing, but it just sounds awesome and funny at the same time. Love it! That’s another fear I have about moving. Scared I won’t be able to get all my mail forwarded and that someone will screw around with my identity or something. Hell, I’ve long wanted...

Aargh....LOL. Well, A realtor who has been sending me emails of various properties for the last few weeks has found two places that interest me. I emailed her back saying that I was interested in looking at two of them. That is stupid of me. Or, maybe it is not. It in no way obligates me...

@whiteraven Thank you so much for articulating all those things.

He, he....maybe we ought to. “The Distressed Sleepers’ Club”? I just took the full arsenal of everything I can safely take to try to knock myself out. Should hit soon....3, 2, 1...... Best of luck to you tonight!

This is a neat thread. Always thought moving was great....due to the oft-mentioned feeling of wanting to “make a fresh start.” Moving to a new place always seemed exciting, always felt really good about getting to a new place. Hoping each new place would get rid of the past. Feeling...

Started going to bed at a very early hour. Took melatonin and another OTC sleep aid. Felt weird, dozed, panicked, nightmares, then completely awake four hours later. Got up and drink some coffee for three hours and then felt sleepy and went back to bed.

THANKS! I’m going to try this for awhile.

Has anyone tried this with success? Daytime is difficult for me. Nighttime feels safer. Any feedback on sleeping during the day and being up and functional at night?

Killin* a perp in the dream state sounds awesome!!!! No negative consequences IRL, and possibly the sweet, sweet satisfaction of REVENGE. Love it. Thanks for sharing that dream! Now, if only I could stab or shoot my abusers in my dreams.....but the knife or sword always turns to...

. @Swift Wow. Thanks for sharing that! I wonder if that is the reason I have felt “dead” or “frozen/dead” as if I can’t feel anything or as if nothing matters during times in my life when I’ve had frequent dissociative episodes.

@whiteraven Thank you for sharing this. I was pondering these same things this morning.

Therapist said, “I can’t think about things like that or I’ll have anxiety for days.” What I would like to say: “So, are you telling me that you can’t worry your pretty little head about it?” So, I can talk to my doctor about international situations that terrify me. I get to see him...

Love it! .....then there’s being able to unashamedly sing opera.....LOL :singing:

@Fadeaway Thanks very much for sharing that with me! Yes! I have experienced a lot of death too. I do think I was trying to mourn before the actual loss of the person! Wow. Just wow. Insightful, you are. Thanks again.

Well, f*ck it! :hilarious: Just when I thought I might have had it all figured out… (Go ahead, laugh) ..... I think that the real reason I have been gnawing and scratching over my relationship with “Jane Doe” is because I have been scared shitless at times . “Why?” one might ask...

Wishing you and your husband all the best!

Well, after a two-hour therapy session, my T and I concluded that - since people go through stages in life - that I may have outgrown my relationship with “Jane Doe.” Sounds reasonable. Still hurts. However,... ....I am going to peacefully allow this relationship to die a quiet death...

I think I understand what you are saying. I was speaking in terms of the idea that individuals get emotional rewards from relationships. For some people, a sense of altruism might be rewarding. Sadly - I think - lots of very kind and compassionate people end up getting treated poorly...