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Thank you. I was touched by your experience. It gives hope

Couldn't agree more.

Thank you all for your responses. it made me think deeper and realized that the issue with my new T is not only trust. she is different from the last T. she is more soft and emotional and very nice person. she doesn't have opinion about what happened to me and what I have to do. my ex T was very...

@Muttly i am so sorry for your experience with your ex T. I can understand that T's are human and have problems of their own. And yet I expect them to be proffesional about it and not To go on with a therapy they can't handle anymore. A good friend who is therapist herself said that what my T...

What isOp ?

After the SMS I asked for a meeting. She already gave my time to someone else. It was a shock for me. We met and she said she feels I need another kind of style maybe relational therapy ( she treated more in the psychoanalytical method). I asked if this how 2 years of treatment will end? No...

In my country the t has to report the police if there is suspicion that the abuser is abusing someone else at the moment. You are 19. Not a child. She tell her friend who tell your mom? What? What? Report her and find new t Sorry that this happened to you

The last T was a figure of authority. She was very analytic and smart and talked a lot about psychological theories. I was afraid of her and admired her. The present T - I don't think of her at all.

i was in therapy for 2 years. Second year 2 times a week. My t was amazing in the first year. I couldn't believe that I found someone so proffesional, smart and with sense of humor. After the first year I started to have flashbacks of sexual abuse. I was terrified and didn't want to deal with...

How are you today?

12-13 Never masturbated as a child. Didn't know nothing about sex until I found a book in the library with pictures at the age of 12. And than I started to ask my cousin or my friend to sleep with me. Thank god they didnt agree.

Yes you are normal No you don't have to be ashamed

Whenever I have flashbacks I want to die. Every time. When the flashback pass the need to die disappear. Maybe part of you wanted to die when the rape happened. I don't know. But it is just a feeling. It will pass. It will pass. Do you have a T? Can you talk to someone about it? Is there a hot...

Yes. it seems to be that you tried too hard to be a good girl in order to be the opposite of your mother untill you lost the connection with yourself. maybe now that you pushed everybody out (including god) you will have the space to found you. Regarding God - i feel the same these days. i...

I feel the same. When I was younger I did things I didn't like with man I didn't like and convinced myself that I was using them. In my thirties after one abusive relationship too much I stopped seeing man and stoped being sexually active. Now that I am in therapy I know it's not right. Didn't...

My heart is with you. I have heard you. Sending you a hug if you accept :hug:

Me too feel his presence all the time. Sometimes it's scary and sometimes his good pressence. Until few weeks ago it used to freak me out. now I got used it. If I feel his pressence than there is new issues to work on.

All the time. Only in the last few weeks I started to realize how constant and deep is my anger. I was angry all my life and I didn't know why. I take the anger inside not on other people (at least I try). The funny thing is that when I was younger people used to love my anger because it moved...

In a strange way I don't ask these questions. In my case nobody could know or help. I don't hold my family as capable people so I expect nothing from them. maybe it's denial but I really believe that they could do nothing even if they knew.

It's sad I don't have evidence and I think that I will never have real evidence. But I am starting to have flashbacks in which suddenly one item looks familiar. I remembered his watch ( looked in the old pictures and found the watch ). The last flashback I had few days ago , one of the things...

I write sometimes. But not all of them. I forget them few minutes after I experience them.

I have the same body memories. pain like a knife is cutting the place. Burning. Or just plain pain. Sometimes it's emotional - like there is a scream or sadness going out from there. It started after I started to see the abuser in my flashbacks. I am not sure that I would run to find a T for...

I can relate very much to what you wrote. I have chalange with strong emotions. I can't express strong emotions and can't stand people starting to cry or shout without control . I freeze when people become too emotional. Usually I don't believe them. I am sure they are looking for attention. I...

I started to think about self respect. I am not a liar nor am I a person who is looking for trouble or attention. In this process I am not disturbing nobody ( I didn't told my mother or my brother about what is happening in my life at the moment with the flashbacks and nightmares because I...

@Allie D. I am very glad that you shard you experience. Personally, I learn a lot from other people's experience so your intuition was right. Regarding the Trust issue - I trust my T very much I told her things that I never told no one not even my past T. I feel that she care about me in a...