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Didn't make it, tried third attempt last night. By overdose Heading to lock now. May God bless, all who seek out Peace. Thanks G

A long road to get to the unknown...... Think maybe I'll camp and see where I end up. Nite nite y'all. G

Greetings How did you survive? And what happened afterwards. G

Greetings I have such a drive to call the hotline and tell them what a tightrope I'm walking this week.... But the last time I was honest with them I was locked up for 10 days. The pitfalls of this new reality.... Suck...... G

Greetings Under va and private care and on a much better med package. Had heavy storms the other night and dealt with very low visibility and unmarked flooded roads. While shooting the shit with some of the guys it dawned on me that yes I did deal with it and not panicked my way through the...

She has OCD for decades When we were new to each other we worked around this.... 10 plus years has stiffened both of us in our ways ... G

Pt 2 Upon release some vitamins were added and 3 out 5 meds for ptsd isseud by my up were continued and 2 more added. 1st VA visit spent 2 plus hours with case coordinator and have settled on a course of action Next visit is on the 15th with psychology and Med review. Further appointments...

3 days my ass, it was 10 The Dayton hospital is older but clean and the staff orderly and polite and willing to grant request when allowed. Spent a lot of time with the social worker, hours and hours with the psyc depth. And MD. Finally got the meds in balance the ticks are much better the...

_Reporting to the VA in the morning for a psyc evual, the time frame is 3 days inpatient. I don't like me roaming around in my brain, now there are going to be strangers snooping around in there. My luck they will hang on to me for a week. Will post when I get sprung. G

Weeping willow my favorite tree. G

Greetings My date is the Friday before Memorial Day. Don't know why I attempted, I was just sitting in the back yard with the dog and knew it was time to go to bed (I work overnights) and went into the house, went straight to the medicine and took alot of pills and beer and booze, I then went...

Greetings I attempted just before Memorial day 2018 was absent for 2 weeks. When I got back nobody said anything, only if I. Had a good time off. So after a week or so I started to tell the loud mouths the real reason I. Was gone. Silence...... Then ever so meekly the questions started, and...

Greetings Q1 biofeedback therapy at Curtis bay uscg Med center. Q2 I am a full blood American Indian raised in a all white community. From birth. Q3 yes attempted suicide Friday before last memorial day, the Mrs blames the lexapro I think the ataivan had a influence as well. 8 days in custody. G

Greetings Talked to the Mrs. About the other day, she remembers nothing about the incident. So I. Had to tell her what happened she cried all over again. So I got a call from the VA to talk about what they have to offer, Tomorrow I'm. Calling the hot line to update them on today's status. If...

Greetings Since I drive all night I pulled at a thought thread. Why did I act that way. Well when I was growing up my mother was an induntured housekeeper, her pay was room and board for the two of us and that was a 1940's camper parked in the drive way. The lady of the house was very caustic...

Greetings Had pysc evual, no results yet. In the mean time , my ability to control my anger is weak at the best. The Mrs. And I got into it and I made her cry out of my white hot angry comments. A first for both of us, now avoiding each other. My desire to go away forever is very strong...

I was USCG 78 to 90 G

Greetings The two main incidents was the air flordia crash in wash DC and a shooting situation about 5 years later, both happens in the 80's. And about 3 years ago the ptsd fired it's. First real shot at me, and it was a direct hit. Been under the gun since G

Greetings The court thing was in a dream and no Atty on my side. Yes driving for a living and slow one lane farm roads to relax because I'm. The only one out there and can stop.and watch the farmed work or wildlife. G

Greetings Nov 20th appt in Detroit for a 3 hour evaluation. Trying not to stress about this but I dreamed about being in court and on the stand defending that I truly did have PTSD. And slept like shit. And this appointment is almost 6 months since my suicide attempt and already been thinking...

Greetings Been a few months of stability. But that went up in flames as my 40th HS reunion was last week. Are you coming? They asked, no I. Said I'm. Here in the cornfields, of Ohio and trying desperately to get my Ptsd somewhat under control so my life can squeek out of the cat box of shit I'm...

Veterans hotline when the thought is more than fleeting. G

Greetings Change is not a fan favorite of us ptsd'ers but it is what it is. I'll cuss you out in the privacy of my sofa. But I'm not going anywhere the VA is my next stop, and I'm sure that will be a fertile ground for comments.... G

Greetings Remember this is 2 months after my failed suicide attempt. So I expected some changes in both of our behavior's but hers is much more severe. G

No direct talk about separating but the actions she is taking during regular life has been withdrawn and her demeanor towards me is distant. Short leash, is that she wants to know where I am all the time, today's example is I stopped at the AmVet's for awhile and got a text of where are you'