Ptsd rampage

[Glo809]

Greetings

Had pysc evual, no results yet.

In the mean time , my ability to control my anger is weak at the best.

The Mrs. And I got into it and I made her cry out of my white hot angry comments.

A first for both of us, now avoiding each other.

My desire to go away forever is very strong, I've learned from my past mistake of to do it right this time.

But after the holidays.

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[Ronin]

Nah.

This is a bad time of the year, and stressful time for you, not worth costing you whole your life.

Congratz on that exam done, it is an accomplishment that you got through it.
Can you get some time off, somewhere out (that you would not have to think about relationships on top of all the other things stressing you out)? Or just a few days somewhere between the holidays, if you got them?

 

[shatter eyes]

I am learning about the stress cup and recently counselor did something called chain analysis.
Its from dbt.

I guess the goal is to help me flip birds instead of flipping out. Frustration and irritability can appear as anger.... but i am not an angry guy.

Its tough..try to hang in and share here. It helps me

 

[Glo809]

Greetings
Since I drive all night I pulled at a thought thread.

Why did I act that way.
Well when I was growing up my mother was an induntured housekeeper, her pay was room and board for the two of us and that was a 1940's camper parked in the drive way.

The lady of the house was very caustic and she beat me from time to time, over the years I grew to hate her, I. Liked her husband and my natural father was unknown.

So I went into the service in 78, and dealt with anger issues for a few years but got it under control.

What if Pat mimicked the tone and attitude that was used on me all those years ago, could I have tapped into that pool of pure hatred?

If I did then I've become very dangerous.
Comments?
G

 

[Glo809]

Greetings
Talked to the Mrs. About the other day, she remembers nothing about the incident.
So I. Had to tell her what happened she cried all over again.

So I got a call from the VA to talk about what they have to offer,
Tomorrow I'm. Calling the hot line to update them on today's status.

If they want to lock me up again, I. Have no problem with that at all.
Pat's safely is the most important thing.

G

 

[blackemerald1]

So I went into the service in 78, and dealt with anger issues for a few years but got it under contro

^^How did you get your anger 'under control' then? What did you do to calm down.. short and long term?

What if Pat mimicked the tone and attitude that was used on me all those years ago, could I have tapped into that pool of pure hatred?

^^Did she..?? Or are you simply reaching for a reason to be angry and it has to be her fault or something to do with her?

People do argue and get angry. Anger is a normal emotion and it cannot be banished anymore than other emotions.

If they want to lock me up again, I. Have no problem with that at all.
Pat's safely is the most important thing.

Have you been involuntarily committed before? Have you told them you may harm yourself or someone else?

 

[Glo809]

Greetings
Q1 biofeedback therapy at Curtis bay uscg Med center.

Q2 I am a full blood American Indian raised in a all white community. From birth.

Q3 yes attempted suicide Friday before last memorial day, the Mrs blames the lexapro

I think the ataivan had a influence as well.
8 days in custody.

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[shatter eyes]

Meds can really complicate things. And some have a fine print of increased suicidal thoughts and suicide such as zoloft.

Glad you are still here.