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    What do you do with jokers and degraders?

    I think each offending person should be handled differently depending on the situation. In this situation I would confront him head on, bluntly and sternly but not with anger and basically tell him his brand or humor (even if it's not humor this may soften the conversation) is not appreciated...
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    Mother's day

    No you are not a monster.. until recently I hated my mother with a visceral hate that should not be possible. I told her more than a decade ago to get out of my life and pretend that I was dead because she was absolutely dead to me. However about a year ago I realized my eight was affecting no...
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    Research Writing A Book, Need Some Advice

    Not being mean spirited but IMO you have little chance of much success writing this far out of your field of life experience. I have suffered with PTSD since childhood, rejected multiple diagnoses because I refused to admit it, and after accepting the truth of it a few years back, seeking...
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    Somatic Flashbacks?

    I am sorry that you are dealing with this. I hope there is encouragement in knowing you are not alone. Strange but I have also been absent from the forum for a while and actually doing very well, no xanax and learning to spot and stop triggers and more importantly get out of my reactive mind and...
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    I Feel Like No One Can Possibly Understand

    I am in my 50's My PTSD stems from early childhood abuse and rejection. It was taken to the next level by peer rejection in early grade school. I am not the best looking person but not a troll under a bridge either. I suppose I am Joe average. Acceptance is very difficult for me to accept and...
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    Erectile Dysfunction

    Thanks all for your responses. I will update this periodically and I sincerely appreciate your supportive comments :)
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    Erectile Dysfunction

    I am being pretty brave here and putting myself out there. I have (among other PTSD symptoms) ED. My situation is a little different in that I am a gay man, but parts is parts right LOL. Although it has been nearly 30 years ago, I can go to the time and place where a traumatic and fear...
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    Hyper-vigilance

    I agree. I had always heard fight or flight. Only in therapy did I learn freeze. I am not a fighter and only somewhat does flight affect me, but freeze is my battle. I have learned a lot and have come a long way but I still have those triggers that send me to the freeze zone
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    Hyper-vigilance

    Ironically I go to full fix it quick mode mentally but physically i usually shut down, can spend hours on the couch fixing it in my head, it is a tough issue for sure
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    Hyper-vigilance

    Maybe dog paddling LOL or treading water at times, no Michael Phelps here
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    Hyper-vigilance

    I have, and that is why I am much much better. What used to paralyze me for days and sometimes weeks emotionally now last a day or two, of course my goal, which I hope is realistic is to get to the place where I spot the trigger and stop it before I find myself falling for the trap. :) Thanks...
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    Hyper-vigilance

    I am sure I am not alone. My hyper-vigilance leads me to my freeze zone. I pick up on unusual behavior, vibes that may be unusual or insinuate that someone (mostly my partner) is upset about something. It seems that every area of my life is put on hold and I go into full analyze and repair mode...
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    What is your favoured mode of reacting? fight, flight, freeze or fawn?

    True. I am a freezer. Been that way all of my post childhood life. Didn't know what it was until a couple of years ago and therapy helped me see it and learn to stop it. I have made remarkable progress but still have still times I battle it. I've learned the victory lies in spotting the...
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    What is your favoured mode of reacting? fight, flight, freeze or fawn?

    True. I am a freezer. Been that way all of my post childhood life. Didn't know what it was until a couple of years ago and therapy helped me see it and learn to stop it. I have made remarkable progress but still have still times I battle it. I've learned the victory lies in spotting the...
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    Rejection

    Damn... me exactly. School can be a war zone right, every day, all day, and with no safe harbor home it is magnified. Hell at home, hell at school, sometimes I am amazed I have done as well as I have to survive.
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    Rejection

    I feel much the same. I tend to manage well (better) lately although I have my triggers and if not careful I can spiral downward very quickly although I tend to also pull myself up quicker these days. I can say I know (in my head) there are family and friends who sincerely love me but my heart...
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    Let's Talk About Sex

    I agree. I guess talking to me about that right now is like cautioning a heroine addict about dirty needles though. Sad and unfortunate as it is my self worth, sense of belonging, acceptance and self esteem is tied to sex right now. Not sure if or how that is possible :( This is a major reason...
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    Let's Talk About Sex

    Oh, painfully aware. Sex is my drug of choice, not ready to deal with that... besides there is never a hangover, lol
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    Sufferer Hello, This Is Me

    Hello, Mark here. I have been diagnosed with PTSD four times over a 20 year period. I rejected the diagnosis because quite frankly I thought it was a diagnosis for people who had suffered much worse, like veterans who return with no legs. That was my thought anyway. I finally accepted it in...
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    Let's Talk About Sex

    I am pretty much a sex addict. Gay BTW, don't think that really matters but thought I'd mention it. I have spent most of my adult life in 2 relationships, with a woman for 21 years, 3 kids, go figure, no with a man for 10 years. That being said, most of my sex life has been with anonymous or...
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