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I go more gaps without it happening. I try to recognize the small things, I literally will run into a room, turn on the music, run in place... whatever I have to do to get the negativity out of me. it seems to be helping so far. I'll still have days i'm sure, but I recognize it for what it is <3...

I have two most days its Look Away by Chicago.. not the romantic part of it but mostly 'dont look at me, I don't want you to see me this way'. it sticks with me. I moved away from family because they don't understand and think i should 'be over it' so that song. The other is inner demons by...

we all react different but are so much the same <3 welcome to the site!

I share a lot of what you feel. I have PTSD, anxiety, depression and others that don't matter to this conversation :) I used to OD and end up in the ER drinking that nasty charcoal or getting my stomach pumped if I wasn't awake when I got there. It's a horrible cycle to be in. I am like you, I...

do you still do that? I used to hurt myself in rage I really try not to hurt anyone now and verbalize the whole time that i feel like doing it, then end up kicking a chair. I used to have a punching bag in my garage that worked well but since i moved, I have no space for anything and no garage...

Hi @KatieO I also suffer from PTSD. I feel less alone here with other people that understand. and hey its open 24/7 :) I hope you find lots of resources and help here. Welcome :)

I hope I am answering this right this time @TreeHugger By God. It was after my Dad passed a few years ago I had a spiritual awakening of sorts. I had kind of went agnostic and nearly atheist for a while, being mad at God for a long time because of things that happened in my life. I was...

I appreciate you breaking it up into sections it makes it easier for me to understand and be able to respond except I didn't copy it right because as I write this I can't see what you wrote. I have to try another way. stand by.

hugs back :) it's good to know people understand the exact way I feel :)

Sorry Y'all, I think this is going to be a general rant. As I was typing the title I could even feel myself going deeper down the rabbit hole so who knows where this will end up. I've been going to my church for two years now. It was put on my heart to be baptized. Our church submerses in a...

I hate it too, I am so sorry this is affecting you. I was reading it is in place for 120 days but I hope something can be done way before then. It isn't right and I'm praying that this can be resolved. I'm glad you have a place to vent but I pray your relationship can withstand <3

right!!! my husband has never had a license so I do all the driving but I'm never ever out alone. Lord knows I would drive by my house, order food and leave without getting it, pump gas into the car instead of the tank! LORD only Knows :)

idk but just be careful who you give your # too, don't want to end up having to change your # if someone isn't respectful with your info...or texts you in the middle of the night or something.

I'm going to look into it but we really have to pay off a few credit cards first to free up copay money. Right now its a choice between gas and groceries so it doesn't leave much. I really screwed myself getting a car. I had a truck that had 200k miles on it, but I owned it. I somehow decided I...

I love the words THING and THINGY! My two bestest friends :) I am sorry that you go through it too. I do find it is more when I'm under stress or excited about something. That's something I didn't realize til you said that.

Hi @Emma lewis I'm glad you found this site and I'm glad you got out of that relationship. I was in one as well and I'm glad you have found happiness. I get dizziness from time to time but I was told mine is from concussions / effects of too many of them. I get confusion as well. Someone spoke...

hi @ladee I'm not in any kind of therapy. After the last concussion when I couldn't do my job anymore, they said I should file for disability. So I went from full benefits and 45,k a year to 17,k a year and being on medicare. I can't afford anything because of debt accumlated after I couldn't...

I was feeling fine and now I'm not. I felt positive for days Now I have extreme sadness I can't figure out why It's snowing outside I went to the store I was singing Everything is Beautiful It's not a real song, I was literally just singing it at the snow Earlier I was trying to say 'prisoner'...

@Muttly I do the same. I am Miss Positive to the outside world with a joking demeanor in uncomfortable situations. Even here, I write a post sometimes and work on my trauma diary when I can stomach it... Other than that, I suffer in silence. The ones around me don't seem to get it. I've tried...

I've slowly been adding to my trauma diary but need to take time off in between <3 I've been trying to write more out there. I intended this post to be a poem but couldn't get the words to work on that day

I did see your response the other day and I'm sorry I didn't respond, it made me think of my mom and her not being there for us growing up. You're right we all deserve that, just to be loved, for us and for no other reason. I hope we all find that on some level. <3

@ladee I'm sorry for not responding. I think I missed responses somehow. "a few things are as fixed as they are going to get." that really hit home for me. I somehow think that they are all supposed to get fixed and then get frustrated when they are not. I know the last time I was in therapy...

hi @SUD BATES and I apoligize in advance if my remarks are similar to someone elses. I can't always read them since I will lose my train of thought. I just wanted to let you know i understand your position and applaud you for sharing it. I hope I may be allowed to share my own journey with you...

you understand.

Hi. Is this why I can't add any new media when I try to post photos in 'media' ?