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I think I can be free from the fear of my cousin ever touching me again. As kids he would touch in places I did not want to be touched. He put different objects inside of me, and had me giving him blow jobs at the age of seven. Even as adults he would grab my breast, my butt or kiss me on the...

I am glad you were able to get away. I hope you continue to post here to get it out. You owe him nothing, no phone call, no explanation, no good bye or anything. You owe it to yourself to continue on your journey. I may have missed the answer to the question I am going to ask so please forgive...

The anniversary of the worst assault is coming up. I feel anxious, sad, nervous, and angry. I never do well around the anniversaries of my assaults. One is in April, and one is in May. I just feel like I just need a break. It has been so hard. Although my Mom and I did not have the greatest...

I heard you could not have them both but she says it is possible to have both.

Yes, unfortunately so. I can go a few weeks of feeling good and I can function and then something happens and I just go into a funk that lasts for what seems to months. She said she has noticed changes from week to week. There are times I cannot tell her anything about my week because I am the...

I have been battling my depression really bad for the past several months. My therapist said she would like for me to be tested for bipolar disorder. She explained to me that she believes the trauma I have experienced has caused this. First of all, I had no idea trauma could do that. I thought...

Thank you everyone. I am trying to be strong for my daughter. The effort it takes daily is exhausting.

I feel like I constantly fight a battle with myself. I put a smile on my face when I go to work but when I come home I am so sad, and lonely. Despite our past I spoke to my Mom often. She passed away in October and I am so lost. I don't know if it matters any more. My daughter is 17 and the only...

Thank you all for your feed back and support. I really appreciate it.

I am so frustrated with the constant roller coaster. I feel ok for a few days and then something happens or someone says something that triggers me and then I hate myself again I and I just want to eat and lay in bed while reading. Crying for no reason and everything irritating me. Sleeping...

I have never really tried to talk about them other than in therapy. I did not feel better after talking about them. I do know people who talk about their dreams and say it helps.

I think it can be used for several things. Good luck!

My therapist wants me to do EMDR therapy for four weeks and then come back to her. I have read on EMDR therapy and it really scares me. Another thing is I really can't afford another therapy. I am not sure what will happen if i can't do it. She just said she believes it would help me...

This is correct. The name on the birth certificate does not give him rights. Paternity has to be established in order for him to pay child support and have visitation. Unfortunately she will have to hire an attorney and prove why he should not have visitation. A protective order is definitely...

Thank you @JadesJewel . I do make jewelry every now and then. I am not a crafty person at all. I struggle with staying focused on it because I am not very good. I don't draw but I am good at coloring. I have an aunt that has invested a lot in markers and colored pencils for me. I use them a...

I am coloring A LOT right now. It gives me something to focus on and although I was walking 3 miles 4 times a week I have only walked twice in the last week and a half.

The anniversary of one of the most painful sexual assaults is near. The guy that assaulted me is in prison for murder but that does not help me. I am trying to ignore the flashbacks and nightmares but I am failing. I keep telling myself that it is over and he can't get to me and things he told...

@Mal Content I am learning to like myself first because I honestly don't like myself.

@stp2012 thank you. I am doing ok. I am trying really hard get through therapy. I am still really embarrassed about crying but my therapist said we will continue to work together. We are working on me liking myself so I can learn to love myself. I hope you are doing well! @DogLover33 actually...

Great job of your little girl! I hope she will continue to stand up for herself when others are wrong. That speaks high volumes of you too. You have done an awesome job teaching her it is ok to do that. Way to go!

@stp2012 I am managing better. I am really hard on myself especially after I feel like I have done something wrong. Crying was a huge NO NO for me. My therapist told me not to push myself. So I apologized to her and we talked about my feelings and moved on (no crying though). I am trying to...

Thank you all so much for your replies. I actually felt so bad about crying that I apologized to her. The guilt of showing my weakness was a lot on me. She told there was no need to apologize but it was so wrong. she tried to tell me that my pain is real and I in no way deserve to hurt like...

I have been struggling so bad lately with many things. I have always had a hard time crying in therapy and today I could not stop myself. My therapist cried too. She said she knew it was bad but did not realize how broken I really felt. I am upset with myself because although I am sure people...

@Gia1019 I did not think about me taking power back. I asked her if she was available but she isn't. He is not being cooperative at all. He told the attorney that he doesn't trust anyone to get his grandmother moved but me so that is how I ended up doing it. I really want her here because it is...

My therapist and I have been working on me talking about me being molested. I was in session today and told her how I have to contact the cousin that done this to me because he is the one that needs to get me information so I can get his grandmother (my great aunt) to the city I live in. I am so...