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Wrote this on the piano the other day. Creatures of the Sea Tame the wild, tame the free, Tame the monsters out of me. Restless watch the tide from shore. Box me, shelf my spirit here. I'm made for more than wooden pores And hooks on walls that hold me still The ocean's wild and calling me...

A Hard Today Waking up tomorrow it's a whole new day, Shadows of the downpour linger faintly. Lightning ripped through dulled remorse, Enlivening the bitter, brooding force. Waiting for tomorrows a lifetime away, On the only standing pillar in the quake. Huddled in my tears the ticking tires...

This is remarkable. I love it.

I'm pretty new to this, and was wondering how much the T is supposed to control the sessions? She doesn't seem to let me decide what's important or what to focus on. Is this normal? She brought something up, I said it wasn't important and not to bother, she insisted on talking about it anyway...

A Hard Today Waking up tomorrow it's a whole new day, Shadows of the downpour linger faintly. Lightning ripped through dulled remorse, Enlivening the bitter, brooding force. Waiting for tomorrows a lifetime away, On the only standing pillar in the quake. Huddled in my tears the ticking tires...

I feel you. I had your typical religious nutcase, overprotective parents. My upbringing was similar in ways though not as bad and had no sexual violence from my parents, and I had the positives of having two siblings. I was homeschooled straight through and my family don't talk to a soul, not...

My parents still try to accompany me on dr appointments, and I'm 23. Sometimes they even butt in. I think I managed to make them stop when I got my own car at 22. Awkward. Based on what friends my age say, this isn't really normal.

It's not easy learning to trust when you've been given no reason to trust in the past. I went to University having never truly spoken to anyone outside of my immediate family before, and I was bullied a lot because I was different, having been basically brought up on a different planet. It took...

I can relate to feeling like your life was stolen. My parents isolated me from the world and controlled every aspect of my life until I was 18. I feel like I was 'born' when I was 18, because I'd never lived before then (I could finally decide what to eat for breakfast!!). It's a tough thing to...

Hey, if one of you doesn't mind, could you please message me to talk about God/parents who forced me into this religion and some things I'm struggling with in relation to that?

I think fight response would be the right way to see it. I do remember freezing the first time I got in a fight at night and I just crouched in a corner, and got beat up until the muggers realised I had nothing valuable to steal. I couldn't bear living in fear of being raped like my mum taught...

I talked to a counsellor at University about my experiences and she sent me to a GP who diagnosed PTSD, at least relating to the events I spoke about on this post, not my childhood. The next step is therapy, but I'm still terrified to actually begin so have been putting it off, but after talking...

Thanks guys. I guess I'll give therapy a go for a bit and see how it affects my ability to study. Hopefully I haven't opened a can of worms that I can't put back in. This is all scary and uncharted waters for me. I just wish my siblings were in the same boat as me - they seem content to live...

Thanks for sharing your stories. I guess I should learn to value life more, but it's so hard when the only time I feel alive is when I'm inches away from biking off a cliff. I'm not really sure how to change that.

I know, I've felt a tremendous amount of guilt over the years. I thought I was being punished for disobeying my parents. I truly used to believe that if I wasn't the one who adopted that rabbit, then she wouldn't have had to suffer. They really did torture her to death, putting needles in her...

Time has helped, as well as focussing on my career. I won't lie, some unhealthy habits have also helped me to cope, such as extreme sports. I have a few horses who are actually very therapeutic and they really teach you to focus on the here and now, and are amazing during flashbacks. I'm still...

I don't have a therapist, but my friends have encouraged me to see the University counsellor. She's been helpful, especially in pointing me towards possibly free psychology services. I've only seen her once and even opening up a little about my childhood had a huge affect on me and I stopped...

I'm not sure if this will help me, but maybe getting it all out there will help me move on. I was unaware that I was being stalked for who knows how long by two guys. My pet bunny mysteriously died a couple months before everything happened. When I was 14, I had a big fight with my parents and...

A big part of my trauma was one sudden night of incredible fear, and I started getting into fights after that. I've since managed to replace the fighting with high risk activities, such as extreme downhill mountain biking, riding dangerous horses and reckless driving. I overdo these a lot when...

Okay this is a bit long and I apologise. I have two different facets of my life that I think I was traumatised over, but I always skim over my childhood and focus on a very traumatic event that happened later in my life that I have very distinctive PTSD from. I guess what I can't seem to figure...