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    Sensitivity to world around me

    I don't know that I'd call it an ability, haha, but, yeah. Sometimes the time lapse between dream and specific event is so short and so bizarre that there's no denying the connection between dream and event. Sometimes the dream is about a car wreck. Well shoot, they happen all the time, so...
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    Do you share everything with your t or are you selectively candid?

    And that's a fine response, too, if it works better for someone. For me, I don't want the topic on the other person's radar. Example: Have you been sexually molested? I'd rather the counselor's notes say "client denies having had xxx experience" than "client does not wish to discuss experience...
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    Do you share everything with your t or are you selectively candid?

    I flat out lie to a counselor who wants to ask questions that I don't feel are relevant or appropriate. I feel as though I've made good progress on this healing journey and I'm not about to let someone derail it, or to form an uninformed opinion about me based on answers to questions that I...
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    Realizing how much distorted i am in my thinking and communication

    I'm not sure what you are asking, but reading your post reminds me that when I was in my 30s and 40s I felt that the real me was waiting to be discovered, or re-discovered. Now, in my early 60s, I feel as though I've shed many, many of the behaviors (or rather, shed the underlying beliefs and...
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    Timeline change!

    I would love to hear about what it's like for you when you try it. I hope it helps you.
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    Timeline change!

    I think of it like this. If we imagine time as a rope, with youth on the left and aging on the right, where we are right now is at the very end of the rope, on the right. The rope gets longer as we age. So, now, I am on the far right. But then I think of the event and the rope bends (because...
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    Timeline change!

    There's a lot of backstory to this, but to just get to the point, below is a summary of what I think has been a HUGE breakthrough for me. *This has been a lon-n-n-n-n-g process. Didn't just magically pop from nowhere. A few weeks ago I was wiped out by an emotional flashback of, well, it was a...
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    Sexual Assault Labelling what happened

    YES. The healing process for me really took off once I began examining the label and what would lead a professional or support group to stick it on me. I'd heard "PTSD" applied to 20 years ago. I understood some of what it meant (jumpy was the only thing I could identify with, and that was the...
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    Nightmares that are attached to childhood

    I have no insights to offer on the meaning of your dreams. But I have an opinion on dreams ;) I had horrible nightmares of being chased by various forms of monsters for all my adult life. I was working hard on my healing journey. One day I decided to take control of the dreams. I changed the...
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    Sufferer I just want to share my story, i have an anniversary coming up this week. - childhood trauma & rape

    Welcome. I believe in healing; I come here to find out what others are doing to become healthier and also to remind myself that just because it sounds crazy doesn't mean it didn't happen. Helps me own my story. I wish you the best as you keep on going for a healthier next step. It's hard when...
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    Improved cognitive functionality

    I notice that recently I've been more fully engaged in each moment. This is wonderful because I catch myself checking out less often. (oops. I hope this means that I'm doing it less, not noticing it less 8-0 ) The short term memory issue is very distressing, as I usually operate in a rapidly...
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    Research Does a difficult/traumatic childhood lead to future self-harm and harm to others?

    Yes, on the kidnappings. Our parents took turns spiriting us across state lines. I didn't know how to answer some questions because in our childhood, some years were better than others. Some years we saw both parents, then for years on end we'd only see one. And during the child-stealing years...
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    Other F#ck you! sorry but not sorry

    That's a sad story. When our family left a church we'd attended for over 10 years we found ourselves with zero community. We hadn't made friends elsewhere, and the friends we thought we had didn't want anything to do with us since we'd had the audacity to leave. And that wasn't even a cult, so I...
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    How did you manage your feelings when you stopped dissociating?

    Whelp. The only reason I go to counseling is that when those feelings come, I become a pile of goo. I now stay quite disengaged from people because that gives me privacy. Or, better, dignity. There isn't any dignity in being the person who suddenly starts crying for no discernible reason. So...
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    Asmr ???? autonomous sensory meridian response therapy

    :laugh: . hmm. the laugh is supposed to express appreciation for the It's brick to the face obvious to everyone else comment.
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    Asmr ???? autonomous sensory meridian response therapy

    A long time ago before PTSD was a thing, I was treated for depression. During that time period I was super-sensitive to noise. Was unable to tune out anything. The world was overwhelming to me. Noise still causes me a lot of stress and I've learned to monitor my environment. Interesting thing...
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    Sufferer Into/ emotional flashbacks/ feeling hungover

    I don't know what that means, to process trauma. I think it means, that if you could process it, then it wouldn't be trauma? It's like, your dog dies and you're sad for a while but you get over it, right? In my case, crap happened. I haven't figured out how to process stuff that doesn't come...
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    Wellness vs therapy

    I've been in and out of counseling over the years. In when things are having too much of an impact on my life, out when things are more manageable or feel resolved. Now I'm choosing to go back into counseling and this makes me mad. I say I'm "choosing," and I am, but only because I realize that...
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    Ptsd, accommodations, sick days?

    Now that I understand that C-PTSD is accepted as a reasonable explanation for the issues that make it difficult sometimes for me to function at my usual work levels, I'm not sure what the best thing to do about it. I work in an environment that is willing to make accommodations such as working...
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    Sexual Assault About the #metoo hashtag

    Weighing in late. I hate #metoo from a selfish perspective. Like, no one listened, everyone buried our (my mother, sister, me) story. From neighbors to family (as an untreated survivor, our mother couldn't deal with what was happening) to school systems, and then later my university, then the...
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    Flashback hangover

    Wow. Thank you everyone. I had no idea that other people have this, too.
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    Flashback hangover

    Does anyone know what I mean? I don't have many flashbacks about things I remember. Instead, I get what I call emotional flashbacks, where I'm flooded with the emotion and it's tied to something that's always been in my head but I don't have a memory associated with it, and then I feel hungover...
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    Sexual Assault Do you ever obsessively trigger yourself?

    Ahh, thanks for this, because it validates (for me) what I'm dealing with now. I always watch shows or read books that include elements that are part of my social history. It's a sort of fascination. Sometimes something like that will send me right off the deep end. I do wonder why the interest...
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