like do you ever feel sore everywhere, like everywhere. every part of your body hurts. you're completely exhausted both mentally & physically to the point you can't get out of bed for the whole day. you feel sick, like feverish and everything, and kinda nauseous and want to vomit thinking about...
like what symptoms & stuff do you usually get.
pers it's usually either flat out dissociation & stiffness, without anything else usually. or it's panicky feelings, strong physiological reactions w body memories
(btw if this question is a little weird, i'm triggered af rn)
this might sound weird (and warning btw i'm kinda drunk) but i'm sorta jealous of people who have worse traumas than me, idk why.
pers mine are from i was underage mostly & are sexual but for some reason i still feel jealous of like those who've been like sexually abused younger than me. idk...
i mean depends if it's just purely sexual, or if it's like both kinda or something else. if you've had sexual trauma it's probs half that imo
like me pers i also have like pretty intense 'kinks' (i mean idk if they're really kinks or just like some weird trauma reaction thing) but i know...
like let's say for 3 weeks it sucks really really bad, the next week it's like you don't have ptsd almost, the week after it's hell, then for the next two weeks it's like you got nothing. that type of thing?
also is it normal that some triggers don't trigger you nearly as much during certain...
lately been dissociated 24/7, almost always numb. can't enjoy anything, can't feel anything positive, can't do anything, i'm just so empty & dead inside and i want it to stop. i'm trying to break out of it, but it never really works. i've tried grounding myself in a healthy way (like trying to...