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Hello, You're very welcome and I wish you a bright and happy future. It helped me understand what I needed as a child. There are many helpful journalling prompts in the book : were you seen ? respected ? could you rest and trust in your mother ? what did you need ? were you understood ? did...

Thank you for your kind comment, it really helps. You too deserved a kind mother. Children should never be treated harshly like we were. I have read a book called "The emotionally absent mother" but I haven't delved into her (very likely) narcissism. Do you have any particular recommendation ?

September 12th Dear diary, I think I am a rude, disrespectful person. I cannot talk to my mother in a kind way. I'm often harsh to my boyfriend, whether I'm talking to him directly or talking about him to his own family. I tend to highlight his bad habits and flaws, instead of focusing on...

September 11th Dear diary, I had a lot of fun today at the con ! I purchased some stickers and postcard from my friend. I love them a lot and they were so inexpensive ! I'm so thankful I can support my friend's small business. I wore a new dress I thrifted and got yesterday. There's a...

I am going to a convention and one of my besties will be there selling some of her art. I'm so proud of her and so excited to go ! She has grown so much a person and as an artist !!! I cannot wait to meet her. So I'm grateful for this opportunity ^^

I help an autistic boy in a middle school where I live. I write down his notes, I reexplain some stuff, etc. Due to some issues I couldn't be there for the first week of school. I was able to come back today and it kind of was a surprise. He was so happy to see me I almost cried. He has many...

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September 9th Dear diary, My mother just got a call for a new job, which she's excited about. She ran upstairs to tell me so I congratulated her, as one should. But her joy is annoying. She's pushing it onto me. And I just can't be enthusiastic with her and for her. I don't know why I am...

Thank you for your kind reply and I'm glad I can help even a little bit !

September 8th again Dear diary, Managing anxiety is so hard. Isn't anxiety a symptom, the way for something else to express itself ? I help autistic children get through school. At least, that's what I'm supposed to do but school started last week and I still don't know in which school I will...

Thank you for your kindness <3

Dear diary, Can I write about my burn out that happened during the 2019-2020 school year ? Before my dad went through it a year before I did, I had no idea that burning out was a thing and I couldn't imagine what it felt like before I suffered from it. I reined mine in for many years...

Thank you for telling me, I didn't know about this ! Numbers can be triggering to people battling with ED so I took some precautions, just in case.

September 7th again As I'm waiting for my boyfriend to come to my house, I wanted to write about EDed behaviours in my family, how I am doing, etc. My mother is thin. Scarily thin now and she's boasting about it. She grew up in a poor family, with many overweight siblings (except one of two)...

Dear Dharma, Thank you so much for replying to my diary-thread. It seems that you went through a lot. I really hope your life is good and that you're happy where you are <3 My mother is not religious but she's thinking quite highly of herself (maybe because of insecurities she's trying to...

September 7th Dear diary, I struggle to talk kindly to my mother. Even when she's trying to be nice, I snap at her because I feel like she's not being her real self. Her "real self" has never been nice to me. To me, she's never cared about my life, what I like or what's going on. I was never...

I am able to post because I've been seeing my therapist since April 2021 and talking to other family members made me realize that I am not alone and never have been. I thought I was alone, abandoned and hated by everybody. People made me feel ugly even though I looked like a young Thora Birch...

Dear diary, I know it is a very taboo thing to share in any way, shape or form but I strongly dislike my mother. For the past twenty-four years of my life, I have never felt loved by her, which may be why I feel so much disgust and resentment towards her, because I now acknowledge that this is...

I keep listening to Temple of love (sisters of mercy) and Something in my house (dead or alive). I highly recommend these songs !

Update : I ate some biscuits ("petits beurres") which helps my gut but uuuuuugh

I'm sick so I'm only drinking a cup of tea this morning to avoid upsetting my stomach any further.

As a French woman, I can only agree with you !

Today, I'm grateful for the sunny weather we're having <3

My coping skills, which I also consider self-care, include : - reading fluffy fanfictions - watching peaceful cottagecore videos (I highly recommend Nekoniwa's youtube channel) - venting to a friend instead of hurting myself or bottling everything up - writing in my journal - taking a bath...

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