Hi everyone,
Without getting too into it, I had a grandparent in high school who was diagnosed with a very rare form of cancer. They miraculously survived for about a year or two, with a prognosis of one to two months. I was around 15-16 years old and saw a lot of their illness, treatment side...
This is so so helpful, thank you for sharing this perspective. I did feel powerless RE: my dad and how he treated me, and especially how he was raising my younger brother so I can see how that would translate into my dream world.
I don't have much to add other than a rollcall of "yes this happens to me, too." I actually have a very blurry memory with my own grandfather like you, but like you said, it's blurry - not enough to really make sense of it. I know that when I was younger than 4/5, my dad would take me into the...
@Mach123 you absolutely took the words out of my mouth, thank you for sharing your perspective. @Twedont is new here, potentially sharing this very stressful information for the first time and also shared that they have repeatedly been told "stop overthinking" "you didn't experience trauma" etc...
I don't have much to add here besides my condolences and to share similar experiences. I've known for a lot of years that I was a victim of CSA/incest but it wasn't until this month that I learned about the term COCSA. Just like you, I also had experiences playing "House" and other games where...
So, I went out last night. I was responsible with my alcohol intake but I still took in a heck of a lot of sugar and this morning wham bam thank you ma'am - I start my period. It's probably been one of my most intense ones I've had in a long ass time so it's really swept me off my feet.
It...
Hey everyone, hope all are well
Im not sure if this is the right branch of forum to ask this on, but what are your most reliable ways of reminding your body that you're physically safe and in the present moment? Like "hey body, we're not in the past anymore, we're in our own apartment alone"...
Thank you, that means a lot. I'm really trying.
Also no, writing to my brother would be out of the question. I'm so determined about not putting him in the middle of all the adults he still lives with. I wouldn't want to put him in a position to either defend me and get picked on, or join the...
I keep thinking about a dream I had this morning where I got to hug and hold onto my child brother. He saw me and ran over to me and clung so tightly and our dad was standing over us the entire time asking me question after question, so imposing and oppressive. I've been no contact with everyone...
You're so kind, thank you 🥺 I'm not really sure how I've been tbh, but "okay" in general. It's like I feel so restless but also so tired but I can't sleep lately. My friends are still outside of my support system but I'm just trying to focus on what's important. I've noticed that I'm making a...
@CoolBreezeonahotday thank you for writing so much, and apologies for such a late response. It's been kind of a busier week but I had a session actually the afternoon after you shared your last response. There was an opportunity in the conversation for me to practice being more open about this...
I had no idea! I definitely will look through the settings just to get more familiar but I think at this point I'm comfortable sharing, at least online. Do you know if there are any areas or posts I can go to to see forum rules? I'm always so worried about getting banned
I meant to include this in my original post - I'm not sure if I've mentioned it before anywhere else on this site, but it's probably the most relevant under the subject anyways?
When I was still seeing my first T in person, there was one specific session where I was heading out the door to...
I love this picture! Thank you for sharing, they're all so cute with their tiny little legs. This goose in the picture looks like the herd protector :')
Also are you me? I've had almost that exact trail of "imagination exploration" where I was hanging out with a past life partner and it made me...
@StillPen , @Defaultxlove thank you both :( it's really kind of you. When I first came onto this website I was almost outraged that anyone could look at my stuff in here but it's surprisingly nice. Intimacy phobias are weird
Oh no worries at all! I've absolutely been there with the metaphorical kitchen fire. Take care of yourself first, this post will still be here when you're ready! (also f*ck audits)
I'm so glad this helped you!! I thought I would get replies like "well duh"
Unsatisfactory is a good word to describe the sensation. It reminds me of when you go to drink a cup of juice but then it turns out to be milk and you have to just kind of push through that disgusting disconnected...