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  1. LeiaFlower

    Has Hypnotherapy made things worse or better for you?

    From what I’ve read and talked with my neuropsych, psych professors, and some therapists, hypnosis is not how it was glamorized in the 80s as you also mentioned. Have you talked with therapists in your area? Usually the ones who specialize in can give a better glimpse into symptoms and reactions...
  2. LeiaFlower

    How to manage disassociation in EMDR?

    EMDR is usually geared towards clients with PTSD. It’s odd that the DES wasn’t done prior towards the start of the actual EMDR. Did you mention PTSD and dissociation during intake or brought it prior, and she forgot? As for the high dissociation, I was told the same thing when I wanted to start...
  3. LeiaFlower

    Have you tried TMS?

    My therapist wants me to try TMS. She strongly recommended an IOP, despite telling her I’d done it three times and that, while helpful in some ways, it’s not what I need right now. I agreed to try TMS to avoid being pushed into another IOP, which previous therapists have done due to my chronic...
  4. LeiaFlower

    Healing Resentment Towards Enabling Parent: Seeking Support

    I didn’t notice I never replied. I like to think normalizing and rationalizing was the best coping mechanisms our child selfs could conjure against our abusive reality. Recently my sister informed me about her perspective on a blotchy memory I had about our abuse, and our coping mechanism was...
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    Healing Resentment Towards Enabling Parent: Seeking Support

    It feels wrong to call her an abuser, though due to her denial and lack of ‘insight,’ she has caused significant damage. But she doesn’t acknowledge the abuse or brushes it off as her being a young immature parent. yeah, it’s conflicting. I want to scream at my parents and to be angry, but with...
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    Healing Resentment Towards Enabling Parent: Seeking Support

    I've been struggling with a significant increase in emotional dysregulation and depression, primarily due to the conflicting relationship I have with my mother. My father was more emotionally abusive. He had a strict parenting style and adhered to the controlling beliefs from a fundamentalist...
  7. LeiaFlower

    Self Therapy

    Not necessarily alone just less. Instead of meeting two therapists once a week. I want to meet one therapist twice a month. In between when I don’t have a session I would also add a support group. However, it is currently unclear on whether therapy is working for me because there is no...
  8. LeiaFlower

    Self Therapy

    Thank you for sharing. I do agree that some things I cannot do by myself. What’s interesting is when I went to my current trauma therapist, we retook a dissociation and PTSD test and both stated that they were on the lower end. I did do an outpatient PTSD group that was more helpful than what I...
  9. LeiaFlower

    Self Therapy

    I have not been in therapy that long. However, I have been passed around by various professionals in the field with the initial statement that they’ll help me learn ways to tackle my symptoms using their specialty/area of therapy to create a treatment plan that targets my goals. However, when...
  10. LeiaFlower

    Male Survivor - resources for male CSA

    You might’ve heard of the YouTube channel before but Therapy in a Nutshell has a lot videos about helping trauma, most being some form of self therapy. I really liked her Processing Emotions playlist. YouTube is usually my go to for self therapy. It has just about everything. It even has some...
  11. LeiaFlower

    Male Survivor - resources for male CSA

    Yeah, I recently started seeing a trauma therapist that specializes in sex therapy, sexuality, and sexual identity. It’s going pretty well. I did not realize how entangled my negative feelings towards the field of sex was with my sexual trauma. I don’t know why I thought things were a quick fix...
  12. LeiaFlower

    Male Survivor - resources for male CSA

    It’s unfortunate how history of behavior is repeats itself when it comes to the treatment of the minority versus the majority. I too was abused my the same sex, a female predator and a female victim. The resources and research surrounding females offenders and help for their female victims are...
  13. LeiaFlower

    What makes a religion abusive/cult?

    My siblings and I all grew up in our parents religion. However, not all of us see the religion as being abusive. One of my siblings stated the religion as being a cult and found a different religion in Christianity. When reading what makes a religious abusive, I found myself checking a lot of...
  14. LeiaFlower

    How do you connect with and process repressed anger?

    When reading everyone’s post I found myself agreeing with everyone. I do see how someone who previously had issues with anger to the point of needing anger management wouldn’t advertise smashing and breaking things. As well as if their anger led to destruction of their personal property. Though...
  15. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    It’s weird, how much time I spend with myself. I say this jokingly of course. But I agree that time spent with oneself can grow a sense of confidence in oneself. I think it’s the balance that I need. Though the close connection in a friend has currently been severe, I do have the conscious...
  16. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    You say host, then later us, so is the host not currently in control? Or is there simply no one person that’s the main host. That must’ve been frightening to process. First the feeling of possibly dying then to be flooded; however, due to the quick reaction you were able to survive. As well as...
  17. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    I only have dissociating and some derealization. I can’t imagine how DID might feel for you. To “wake up” so to speak, and parts of your life be thrown around, missing, or taken advantage of due to an alter taking over. DID can be very hard to live with at times, how have parts work been for...
  18. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    all of this is so ducking 🦆 true for me. I’m so scared of making others feel the way that I do that most of the time I don’t stand up for myself. Then when I do say something and they respond aggressively or passively then I back peddle by saying a self defaming joke or something dehumanizing...
  19. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    Why? You have no obligation to answer them, but why did you speak to a few words though not address the rest of the post? I mean that in the sense of noticing the questions that could’ve been explicitly posed, but not tackling them. They have a greater value than the few words that you did speak...
  20. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    May you explain this part? From what I searched it means “the art of dealing with people in a sensitive and effective way.” Though this is what I found I don’t want to assume what you meant. Yeah, I say this as a good thing, but you sound like my mother with those last two sentences lol. Since...
  21. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    okay okay okay, thank you for your suggestions.
  22. LeiaFlower

    Pulling Away from Friendships

    I realized while visiting a friend that I’m no longer invested in friendships anymore. I still keep in contact with them more so out of obligation. But also it’s this mixing fear that if I stopped talking to everyone I’ll be alone; however, I have this strong desire to be alone. It’s...
  23. LeiaFlower

    Trauma Timeline with Mostly Repressed Memories

    I’m not for sure if this is what you mean, so please feel free to correct me if I’m wrong, but solidifying or proving those memories to be real feels like something I do continuously. I go back and forth between whether I believe I actually have trauma or it’s just my melodramatic. And as...
  24. LeiaFlower

    Trauma Timeline with Mostly Repressed Memories

    I’m trying to figure out how to do a trauma timeline with mostly repressed memories. Since October of last year I’ve been slowly having memories again about the sexual abuse I went through. Though it only happens when I’m in a completely relaxed safe space. This is mostly achieved by being high...
  25. LeiaFlower

    Repeated Phrases — How to make them stop?

    Why when I searched “Psychotick” a villain from the television show Power Rangers came up 😂 I’ll have to try this, thank you :) it feels like a vocal tick, unlike stimming where it’s voluntary, this feels more involuntary. It isn’t to self soothe but it in fact cause more anxiety. It isn’t...
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