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Please pray for me that I can have the opportunity to be accepted by a psychiatrist who can do both medication and psychotherapy, specializing in complex trauma and dissociation. Thanks.

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I find it helpful to map out my systems to understand my trauma history and my internal structure. I don't aim for complete integration, because I don't want to carry the huge trauma history all by myself, but splitting myself into multiple people would help ease the load. The goal of the...

Each part, whether it is the alters or polyfragments, they all have a job to hold, whether it is holding a large chunk of trauma memories or tiny chunk of trauma memories. They all matter, as my psychologist said. When I revealed to her about the amount of parts, she instantly realizes that when...

We did an internal calculation of the polyfragments that we have. We do consider them as parts, but more specifically, we have alters (more developed personalities) and polyfragments (tiny segments of traumatic events)--such as a word, a sensation, a smell. We were splitting ourselves...

I have been professionally diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder in 2018 by a clinical psychologist and in 2020 by a psychiatrist. I have met someone who also had millions of polyfragments, she also had gone through ritual abuse. I have full amnesia with my traumatic memories...the...

Q: Anyone also has polyfractal systems? Polyfractal means 10,000+ fragments presenting in the psyche. I have made 2 diagrams/maps about my inner world.

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I talked to my therapist about this internal place and she termed it "the safe hiding place", so that was the time I knew what it is called. Yes, the underground industrial site is a result of my trauma, it was created instinctively by the brutality of the abuse I have endured, but paradoxically...

I also have a safe hiding place, here is the transcript of ourselves from a video we made privately: we sometimes wonder why we were born as a battered existence because we have lived in pain we lived through pain we lived by pain we moved in through pain we breathed in pain we slept in pain...

This is our detailed DID systems map. Anyone else has a DID map too? I am interested to see like minded sufferers.

I have been sexually abused by multiple perpetrators for many years. I had an abuser A, who molested and sexually abused me from 2019-2020--she stimulated my genital, the feeling was very new to me, I felt very confused and very traumatized by it afterwards. I never have touched my genital for...

I have added more details to my journal entry.

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I have been seeing my psychiatrist in 2017, I was seeing him with my head looking down completely, I never looked at his face during the entire session with him. I was in deep depression, because of my chronic trauma and abuse history. There was another time a psychiatric nurse came to my home...

I went to a public mental health service clinic for 2 years, I was served with a public psychiatrist, medical doctor and a case manager, they told me that they will discharge me soon. I am afraid if I go to free services such as Spectrum or ECASA, they might only deal with my trauma for a...

Thanks for the advice. I have been recommended to Spectrum, located in Richmond. I was told that they are free trauma specialists. I live in Australia, Melbourne. I also am on a waiting list with ECASA (eastern center against sexual assault), it would be ready by March 2023. They are trauma...