They Are Just Gone

[Rani G2]

Its another “year end“ phenomenon. Its a Depression thing, a feeling of not being seen, as if one doesnt really exist on other peoples minds. I dont want to think rationally, maybe it helps for a while, but those emotions of feeling abandoned are powerful. So, I need an awareness for my own well being to not fall deeper.

People I get to know over the years, just get out of the scene, If I feel the need to stay connected to them, they dont. They are just gone, just like that. It never really mattered.

What am I saying? I really dont know....lost.

Shankara

 

[ms spock]

Abandonment is so hard. I feel for you.

 

[Rani G2]

Thanks Spock. What hurts is to be around people but still be invisible. I meet people who are so “in their own worlds“. I am probably too, but it hurts to see that no one shows interest. I know, I have to take care of myself, cannot expect it from others, but right now, I feel sad.

 

[ladee]

I have been where you are. It is the lonliest feeling in the world. And if we are already depressed it only adds to the feelings of worthlessness.
But you came here and shared. I heard you. You do matter. You do have a place in this world.
If you were not determined to overcome this you would not have shared.it takes courage to let others know how sad and lonely we are.
So in your sharing I see Courage, Determination, a fighting spirit.
Your voice will be heard the longer you stick with your healing journey. You have things to share that will help us heal too. Do not give up on yourself. I heard you.
Gentle hugs if you accept.

 

[Rani G2]

Thanks ladee.

 

[Canticle]

Its another “year end“ phenomenon. Its a Depression thing, a feeling of not being seen, as if one...

The lonely stare is one of the most difficult aberrations of PTSD and or depression to deal with. I know this one all to well myself.

It is very difficult to stay grounded let alone connected to world around us. Life has a peculiar meaning and a different point of view for all of us. I think we all stuggle to stay conected in our own way. The beautiful moments, songs of life, deeper sorrows, and most importantly love connect us within the tapestry.

I close my eyes and see the light within
when the deep despair of loneliness aches deep down. I know that this love will never fade and I take comfort in that truth.

I seek the beautiful moments when I am strong enough to open my eyes and let the good life in. Smiles begat smiles, laughs begat laughs and light embraces light.

Life is not an easy endeavor for any if us; yet, I thank God for the beautiful moments and those that adhere to the light within.

There is no greater blessing then love. From heart to yours, you are loved beyound measure. We are all conected within that truth.

 

[leelee]

I know how it feels Ive been dealing with being invisible to my family many years. Such a sad and lonly feeling. Im having a hard time even getting in the Chirstmas spirt this year. I felt like I was doing really good and out of nowhere a Chirstmas flashback came, since then well....every time I think about or hear a Chirstmas song my heart aches and I just want to cry. The few friends I do have I know love and care about me as if I was their family. But I seem to be waiting for it to all just to fall apart. when everyone has abonanded you from childhood on, its really hard to know if people are for real or just being nice or feeling sorry for you. I refuse to accept anyone feeling "sorry" for me. I dont feel sorry for me. My whole life has been a fight just to live one day to the next. up to 6 yrs ago. I am a Survivor.... sometimes I have to remind myself of that...

 

[Canticle]

I know how it feels Ive been dealing with being invisible to my family many years. Such a sad and lonly...

I hear you and what yiu feel is quite real..
My lonely despair began long befor I opened my eyes to this world. My Mother suffered a despairing mental illness and was not able to endure her dark episides. She took her life shortly after I was born. My fatther was and remains a narcissist. I had lived with 9 different families and places by the time I was 12 years old.

The lonely despair and abandoment I went through comoiled within my soul. I gave up on the fight and gave into the undertow. I spent the next 5 years turning the light down within. I walked down that long dust road beyound death and breath. It was there that I found the love within and my nobility. I am forever greatful for that.

Life continues to abitrate the ups and downs of deapair and utter loneliness. I have seen beyound the vail and thus alone hold me separate from the normal flow if time. I hear the heart if humanity and see the truth of life. It is very difficult for me to stay connected to the day to day grind of time and flow. I bought a ticket beyound the vail and this much I know. Love is the greatest blessing and connects us all within. You are truly never alone and I will always protect love and honor those in need!