What Bad Shit Have You Done - Daily, As it Comes To You, Your Past, Lets Be Honest

[gealach]

Planned my suicide. Not suicidal now, but I do still think about the plan.

 

[Friday]

@brokenEMT ... I know this thread is more confession, less solution, but... Best way to think about a suicide plan that I know of? How to circumvent it. AKA you know your plan, so when you're not suicidal, how many roadblocks, counter measures, contingencies, and safety nets can you throw up that will slow you down, or stop you, once you are suicidal? Predictable is Preventable + Training myself when I start thinking of suicide? To be automatically also thinking of ways to survive, so that's the well worn path. Can't control the first thought, but can learn to control the 2nd. If ThePlan is going to pop into my head? Okay. Then thought 2 is not more about the plan, but is how to circumvent ThePlan.

<We now return you to your regularly scheduled thread>

 

[Friday]

Also, fairs fair...

Have planned my suicide.
Have attempted suicide.

 

[gealach]

Also, fairs fair...

Have planned my suicide.
Have attempted suicide.

:(Sorry you were in that dark place. :joyful:Glad you're still with us.

 

[gealach]

@brokenEMT ... I know this thread is more confession, less solution, but... Best way...

Yeah when I think about it now, it's more abstract than it is real/planned. I'm not even sure why I still think about it, and when I do it's almost like being in the 3rd person. Weird. PTSD.

 

[Heather]

My neighbor has been really nasty lately and when I came home tonight I had a cup of ice with some soda in it.

I threw it all over her outside Xmas decorations. And I don't feel bad about it one bit.

 

[Ronin]

Talking. / Explaining the past several years.

& Things I feel bad about? Not doing bad shit. On another hand, that'd be oath breaking. And who is scum of earth in my book? Oath breakers. So not going there.

 

[Fadeaway]

Extreme laziness in situation where I should have gotten off my ass and done something about the things in my life I could actually do something about.

 

[Heather]

Drove by my old apartment where my evil witch of a downstairs neighbor still lives

Repeatedly honked horn while giving the finger

 

[Heather]

Keep taking my neighbors Valentine stickers off her door and throwing them away.

She did something nasty..so I took a snowflake she had and stomped it.

I hate that b*tch

 

[PTSDfree]

I wrote a letter to Alex Jones yesterday and called him a retard

 

[PTSDfree]

I have been self-medicating with cannabis for 42 years and I do not plan to stop.:ninja:

As a matt...

Not sure if I'm allowed to talk about this here but buy it on the darknet friend.... Don't need a hookup for it as long as you have the right address, PGP encryption, a btc tumbler, and bitcoins