Vanishing

[Rani G2]

I get this strong urge to cut off every connection I have right now. IPhone Numbers, Emails every trace.

Every relationship (Meaning Friends , family relatives) I had in the past ended out of the blue, no explanations, no reasons were given why it ended.

This is very hurtful, I dont feel that many appreciate genuine relationships.


Whatever...I am done.

 

[Binkie]

I feel like doing this regularly so I know what you mean. I hope this is a feeling which passes quickly. Stay safe.

 

[ladee]

I for one, have missed our conversations. You do have people here who care about you.
The people who have hurt you are not the only people on the planet.
Many here care about you.
I hope this passes or at least you realize there are people who care about you.

 

[Rani G2]

Thanks Binkie and Ladee,

i think this results out of a series of relationships that endend (Not love relationships, meaning only friendships and family) So abruptly, without any communication.

Thanks for answering

 

[anonymous]

That happens and it leaves us with a lot of unanswered questions.
Don't know about you, but I immediately start questioning myself . Am very hard on myself because I don't know what I have done to deserve feeling abandoned.
In the end I just try to look at it as them leaving makes room for people who care..are willing to communicate, who don't play games to keep me confused.
I hate for you they did this..but it may end up being a gateway to finding friends who care.
Gentle hugs

 

[Rani G2]

In the end I just try to look at it as them leaving makes room for people who care..are willing to communicate, who don't play games to keep me confused.

Anonymous, thanks. It makes sense,I feel I am in a place of grief. I have always been someone who has showed interest in other people's well being, I dont want to sound like a pretender, I even hardly talk about myself, I rather listen. But, I dont feel this being in any way honoured or appreciated.

I have erased many contacts, F* em. Either you show honest interest, or leave it.

 

[Rani G2]

I must admit, I feel that there is a childlike state of mind in me, that is very very hurt. Its like,“ give me your attention, or I get angry“. I think I need reflect on that too. Look closely, why I get so extremely angry, for not getting that attention. Its the child that got hurt, but its hard to enter that dimension, be there for her. I'd rather be full of rage, blame them for not being thankful.

 

[Justmehere]

Don't run from that inner child. Listen to that voice and figure out what it hasn't been getting.

Kids who are neglected tend to rage. If they don't, then neglect can lead to death. Rage at least gets attention. I don't know if your needs were ignored or neglected as a kid, but that could be one possible source of the anger.

If you can't be there for her, at least don't run from her.

:hug:

 

[Deleted member 541]

I so get what you're saying. I've had people that supposedly were my friend, but when I voiced my opinion, welllllllll. Nope, they are not a friend. But it was OK, when they voiced theirs... double standards.

Running though doesn't solve anything. Figure out what you need in a friendship/relationship. Figure out what you can offer in a friendship/relationship and then start from there.

There are people out there, but sometimes you have to kiss a lot of frogs to find a good friend!!!!!

 

[Rani G2]

Justmehere

don't know if your needs were ignored or negelected as a kid, but that could be one possible source of the anger.

I grew up in hostels, moved a lot, so neglection did play a role. Hunger, punishments were issues.

I am trying to journal and see that inner child.

Thanks justmehere