Start looking for another source of help NOW. Hi, sorry to start off so sharply, but I've been in your shoes. I even cut back my own meds and started saving them because of my *fear* I would not be able to get them through the help source I had. As I feared, I did loose my source for therapy and meds. It was a very frightening time for me, and going to various agencies and asking for help was the most difficult, demeaning thing I've ever been through. BUT, I had to do it, the option was not a goood one.
I did not have a computer back then, so I started asking people. My T>My Pharmacy>. I looked in the phone book for social services and called them. I even called local charities listed. Of course, I was in a state of panic and I'm sure I sounded that way. Where I live we have a none emergency number,????? can't remember it----good lord, hope I don't need it any time soon---it is like 211 or 411, something like that. They are a source of great info on where to go for various assistance and help.
But do not, I repeat do not crawl into yourself. Reach out for help, even if it is just here. At least you will have a place to express yourself, and receive feedback. Keeping in touch with the world even through this forum has helped me so much.
You said you need a voice. Ya got it here. Welcome to the forum. It is a source of a lot of good info about our condition and people who do understand.
Here's wishing you the best