I feel:
Angry
At people and how vile and incredibly mean they are. I'm pissed off I didn't have the time or the money to finish my work on time and I'm so angry with myself for being so careless.
Humiliated
Over the things I've done in the past. For letting people in, who were so unworthy of my attention and consistently getting away with it.
Hopeless
That things will never change, people will never change. My life will never change, and I will always be my biggest disappointment.
Anxious
Over all the work I have yet to complete and I have such a tiny window to get it done. only 4 days of medication left and 14 days until my next appointment. I don't know how I’m going to make it.
Exhausted
I just; I am tired.
Disconnected
From my body and my overall surrounding. It's a familiar feeling- signs of my "average" state of mind kicking in.