My last outbreak of psoriasis was several years ago on the bottoms of my feet and hands and my scalp. It was ugly, embarrassing, and unbelievably painful. It lasted about 2yrs or so and then went away, now it's on my face. It hurts and at first I had no idea what was going on but now it has hit me just exactly what it is :cry: It's burning hot pain and no matter what I do it just keeps bubbling up. It's not contagious and with good concealing makeup that I already had to cover scars, I can hide some of it when going out but the peeling and bumps are prevalent.
I'm somehow going to have to suck it and deal with another dr in my space to decide what to do if anything. Hopefully treatments won't be too expensive but I have a feeling, like last time, it's just going to be a matter of getting through issues in therapy or through something that are haunting me in order for the nerves to calm down. It's an autoimmune disorder, so I really don't want to take more medications.
I'm really very upset right now over all of this. The FM is kicking my ass, the memories, I'm doing everything I can think of to stay in the moment, to not dissociate, and I feel like my body is just trying to kick me inside out while I am being beat up emotionally. My husband and dogs want nothing more than to give me love and I want nothing more than to be alone with a giant heating pad and the tv to myself. That way I can cry or moan without someone trying to make it better and me not feeling guilty or like I have to explain what's going on. It's not going to be better right in front of someone's eyes. I need to be in a closet for a while. Eyes off.
Blahhhhhh
Rain
I'm somehow going to have to suck it and deal with another dr in my space to decide what to do if anything. Hopefully treatments won't be too expensive but I have a feeling, like last time, it's just going to be a matter of getting through issues in therapy or through something that are haunting me in order for the nerves to calm down. It's an autoimmune disorder, so I really don't want to take more medications.
I'm really very upset right now over all of this. The FM is kicking my ass, the memories, I'm doing everything I can think of to stay in the moment, to not dissociate, and I feel like my body is just trying to kick me inside out while I am being beat up emotionally. My husband and dogs want nothing more than to give me love and I want nothing more than to be alone with a giant heating pad and the tv to myself. That way I can cry or moan without someone trying to make it better and me not feeling guilty or like I have to explain what's going on. It's not going to be better right in front of someone's eyes. I need to be in a closet for a while. Eyes off.
Blahhhhhh
Rain
