Me And My Cancer Adventure

[Froggie]

Well decided to light a candle for me; Freakofnurture you hit the nail on the head

It's tough to think about so many changes at once and I can totally see how it must feel like an overwhelming avalanche of loss, loss and even more loss. And, no doubt, things will be lost. Important things. And that sucks.

I'm realizing that I'm also dealing with some depression signals, so Froggie is going to put her pants on and get some help as I can't stay this way, it will not help this situation.

Saw the oncologist today before the treatment and apparently one of the cancer markers is now in a normal zone. He's estimating that I'll be on treatment for at least 6 months ... if the results keeps up ... before having a treatment truce. I have a TACO (TDM) on Dec. 6th which will give us a better idea of how and where the cancer is receeding. I'll have news on my next treatment.

It's official, I'm one of the cancer patients who will not have to come back between Christmas and New Year and I may even have a chance to start only on Jan. 9th which will give me almost a 4 week break ! :D:tup::laugh::coffee: The lady sitting next to me today didn't have that good news, she is one of the patients that does have to come for her treatment, she was so disappointed and her friend was speachless. I felt sorry for her.

So here I am after midnight, writing my thoughts, my feelings and trying to find ways to adjust to my reality. I just feel projected in a whirlwind of mega changes in my life and that I don't have much time to go through any grieving process for the losses :cry::devilish: as this ... dahhhhh .... these new realities are claiming my time.:eek: And Christmas is just around the corner...

 

[Marie E.]

(((Froggie)))

 

[Tessa]

May our loving God hold you gently in the palm of his hand as you face these changes and may the gentle breeze of the holy spirit brush away your tears and bring you to a peace which is beyond human understanding.
((((HUGS))))

 

[amethist]

Loads of hugs for Froggie.​

 

[Froggie]

Dear friends, you can't imagine the strenght your words, your support and all the froggies you send me. Once again the forum seems like a safe place to deal with my emotions and sort out my thoughts about my situation. So I can only be so grateful and thankful for having you all as friends.

Oddly enough, I'm feeling ok this morning, I can even drink a cup of coffee after yesterday's treatment. That's the first time that happens since the start of the treatments. Who knows maybe tomorrow I won't be able to tolerate my coffee, but for this morning .... yummmm ....

 

[Froggie]

You have permission to take time out for yourself as well and recharge. When you do that you never are far from our hearts so though you may feel lost sometimes and on your own with your struggles, we still see you.

Thank you (((((Rain))))), it's good to read that. You're a wonderful person, glad to have you amongst my friends

 

[Froggie]

((((Froggie)))), you are an inspiration. Keep up the good work

Blush, I don't how I'm an inspiration but thank you. Hope you realize all the messages here help me so much with this reality.

 

[Froggie]

May our loving God hold you gently in the palm of his hand as you face these changes and may the gentle breeze of the holy spirit brush away your tears and bring you to a peace which is beyond human understanding.

Thank you, this really helps me.

 

[Froggie]

candles burning for you.

(((((Mercy))))) your prayers and special words greatly help me through this.

 

[intothelight]

Froggie,

That is good news! I am so glad you are enjoying your coffee :)

And much love!
Deb

 

[KP the nut]

Who knows maybe tomorrow I won't be able to tolerate my coffee, but for this morning .... yummmm ....

(((Froggie))) take the good times and remember them. I missed our coffee appointment, stupid life got in the way. I listened to a song this morning and I thought of you.

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN by Barrage
May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face now
May the rains fall soft upon your fields

And until we meet again
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the palm of his hand
May God hold you in the palm of his hand

May our children and their descendants
Be the ones to find a lasting peace
May their hopes and dreams become united
May the past be left for those who hate

And until we meet again
And until we meet again
May love and trust find a way to make a stand
May love and trust find a way to make a stand

May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
May the rains fall soft upon your fields

May this world and all its wonders
Be a home to all humanity
May the people find a common purpose
May we help one another to survive

And until we meet again
And until we meet again
May Mother Earth pour her heart into our land
May Mother Earth pour her heart into our land

[DLMURL]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqZJB_lHDAM[/DLMURL]

 

[revelry]

I have hopes for your coffee tomorrow, because I think tomorrow is going to be the day the Cancer gets put on a shelf. For a few hours or even the whole day, it will sit on that shelf and NOT bother you.

So enjoy that coffee, get out and about if you can, and maybe even do a little holiday shopping!!!
Im pulling for you!!!!
((huggs))