What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[CraftyCath]

This isn't fair and it aches.

I feel for you KP with all that you have been through with the dental treatment. It isn't fair and I hope it gets sorted soon with the minimal of discomfort.

I've been to see the doctor today. She said it could be Pernicious Anemia but she is running full blood tests including one for diabetes and one to check my cholesterol (which is usually on the high side). I have to have a fasting test on Wednesday morning and then wait a week for the results.

Honestly, I could be dead by the time they sort this! Why don't doctors take bloods anymore? You see the doctor and they send you to the nurse but there is only one who takes blood and she's fully booked for 2 weeks. As it's a fasting bloods they wanted me to come in first thing in the morning but I said I'd have a later appointment if I could get in sooner and just stay in bed longer! So that's what we have done.

I've still got some iron tablets left so after the blood test has been done I will start taking them and see if they buck me up a bit.

 

[PepperAnne]

Today I feel disconnected, disinterested, depressed, worthless and unworthy.

 

[Srain]

Ouch, KP! I'm so sorry, I know how badly that can hurt :(.(((((((hugs))))))))))
(((((((((hugs to those that could use them)))))))))))

I feel good that I was able to be there for my loved ones especially this past week. Stopping the insane garbage in my head long enough to listen how I do make a difference really touched me and what's more I believed it. To think last week I was so far from understanding this I felt nothing for anyone let alone myself, how quickly that can happen is one terrifying aspect of this disorder.

 

[Let It Be]

Today, I am feeling both pain and anger over something that happened years ago.

I had asked the couple next door to pick me up at the hospital after having had knee surgery. When I called them to tell them I had been discharged, I waited and waited and they did not show up.

I eventually called them again, only to find out the husband had left work to do something else, so I waited some more before they showed up.

I was on crutches, thus I couldn't drive myself home. If I had only known they weren't going to be reliable, etc.

More core work to do as I go back to how I felt in being stood up, etc.

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear CraftyCath, (and) the more blood they take the more anemic you become. :(
I went through that, by the last round I actually fainted.
I so hope all is ok and you have a speedy recovery, TLC to you!

Rain I entirely agree- that it is terrifying, and that you are priceless, precious, loved, wanted and needed. :inlove:

(((KP, LetItBe, and Hugs to All who need them)))).

 

[KP the nut]

I am feeling tired, so very tired

 

[Tinyflame]

Try to rest KP. :sleep:

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm feeling worn down, just exhausted mentally and physically. There's a sense of acceptance with it though, it's very new. Not from myself, but others, those around me are more understanding than I thought about what's going on with me.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((Spiderallis)))))

 

[goingonhope]

Today's mostly been, ...and still is, hectic, stressful, noisy. :confused:...:(

I feel stressed, nervous and irritable.

 

[LawPhotos]

Today was miserable from 1 pm on and I am glad it's over.

I feel like I am riding some crazy, out of control emotional roller coaster. One minute I am fine, then I am so sad and depressed and hopeless, then someone will do some little bothersome thing and I am so very deeply hurt and feel rejected and discounted. I don't experience much anger but today I really let go on my daughter-- felt absolutely furious at her for some manipulation she used with me in therapy. I am not sure if I have ever shown that much anger before. I hated feeling that mean and out of control. This was of course followed by a tidal wave of guilt, fear and regret. The shame drove me back to very very bad depression.....

 

[goingonhope]

Good grief it's after 4 in the morning here and I didn't get to sleep earlier like I thought I might. My head hurts, my eyes ache and I am disappointed in myself because tonight I didn't even try to go to sleep earlier. (bangs head against the wall)

I feel unhappy, overtired and discouraged.