I am feeling devastated this evening. First, I just realized that I have had more nurturing from my own children then from my own parents. When I am down, my two youngest children will brush my hair, cover me up and tell me how much they love me (as I have done for them 100's of times) They make me feel loved and cherished as a person has a right to feel. My parents could not do that. It hurts so much when I have realizations like this.
Second, you know how as a parent, you put your children first. I realized that since my own parents never did that and my husband and I don't have that kind of relationship, that I will never truly be first in anyone's eyes. It's just so sad to know that I never had and will never have that kind of relationship.
This is why I feel devastated.