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    Suicidal intrusions

    The strangest thing to me is that it can happen when I'm feeling perfectly normal, sometimes even content. Like watching TV or simply relaxing. It's disconcerting and immediately gets my attention. I worry that it is the beginning of a spiral. I once had a therapist who had me do the "Stop"...
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    Suicidal intrusions

    I am not suicidal but sometimes even when my overall mood is ok I sometimes get fleeting images of how I could attempt. Occasionally a thought of "I just want to die". But I don't. At it's worst, it can be very frequent and pull me into a depressed state. Occasionally I can look back and find a...
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    High functioning with ptsd/cptsd

    I have awful mood swings and times of deep depression. My head is a clustery mess. I can't keep friends. I don't trust people. I feel like I'm broken inside. Some days more-so than others. But all in all, I'm functioning. Maybe not High Functioning, but I've functioned pretty well. And I'm...
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    Dissociation that makes you feel like you're going inwards?

    Possibly. I do not experience dissociation as 'out of body' at all. You may be experiencing derealization which is a form of dissociation where you experience a feeling of disconnection from your surroundings. Things may seem unreal.
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    Personality States Grounding

    "grounding rock" not box :)
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    Personality States Grounding

    I was just reading about those yesterday and really want to make one! Some suggestions off the top of my head (and I may repeat a few already mentioned) are: List of grounding techniques, reminder to breathe- maybe even how to breathe, positive affirmations and good memory prompts, pictures of...
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    DID Shame and fear of dissociated parts

    I've been dealing with that quite a bit in therapy lately. I had on part that took up almost an entire session and it was so weird listening to "me" talk. So different from myself! This part has no compassion and views the world in black and white. My husband told me about a time when he was...
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    If You Didn't Have A Chance To Build A Self Before Complex Trauma

    I don't quite know who my real self is. I have several "ways of being" and one in particular that I like to be and normally am. I think I've created it based on my ideal... molding my"self" from people I admired and respected, social expectations, the idea of being a "good" person. That's who I...
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    Relationship Boyfriend suddenly say he doesn't feel anything for me and his mind is blank as the void.

    When I'm emotionally numb I am usually not in the mood - at all. I don't make a lot of eye contact and if I do it's likely to be kind of blank so to speak. If my husband tried to kiss me I will turn my head away, I shrug off touch or have absolutely no reaction to them. Sometimes I can be...
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    Relationship Boyfriend suddenly say he doesn't feel anything for me and his mind is blank as the void.

    ----------------------- ----------------------- I experience this as well. When my emotions just go numb but I "know" I love my husband and my kids... even though there is no feeling to it. I know I want the best for them, that I don't want them hurt, that really if they were gone it WOULD be...
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    Short flashback?

    Today I had a dentist appointment and they are always stressful experiences. Halfway through the hygenist was cleaning around a tooth that had to be repaired due to an assault when I was on the streets at 16 over 20 years ago. Suddenly I was having rapid memories of the assault followed by the...
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    Avoidance or healthy choice?

    I'm literally in tears from reading your supportive replies. I just want to say thank you. For the understanding and validation. <3. @Rain @ladee, @Beemo3780, @Cannottakethis
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    Avoidance or healthy choice?

    My youngest sister is getting married. For the last year or so I have made the choice not to go to "family" events unless they are at my aunt and uncles or my other sisters. If I go to my bio parents I get weirdly emotional and "little" and unwanted even though they give me no reason in the...
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    My kitty wakes me up from nightmares/ bad dreams.

    Very special indeed. <3 <3 <3
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    My kitty wakes me up from nightmares/ bad dreams.

    Last night was the third time my kitty (who is a little over a year old) has woken me up by patting my head and face with her paws and nudging me with her nose. I don't remember exactly what happened in the nightmare/ bad dream last night, just that it was about my trauma. One of the other...
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